Need Advice

[brokenmomof4]

Hi, I am new to the group and new to mental issues. It all started 4 years ago when I found out my husband was using meth and it almost destroyed our family. I was pregnant with our 4th child and he mentally broke me. I am normally a very strong person. The problem is 4 years late and I still can’t get over it. I developed terrible depression and got to the point that I didn’t want to be around anyone. I went to my doctor and he put me on Zoloft 100mg. The first 2 days I instantly felt better and almost had a high feeling. After 2 month it stopped working. He then added 150mg of Wellbutrin XL after that didn’t work he took me off the Zoloft completely. He then had me take 1 Wellbutrin in morning and 1 at night. That made me have severe anxiety and heart palpitations so he took me off of the Wellbutrin and started Prozac. The Prozac made me go backwards. I was so irritable and short fused. I am now taking 50mg Zoloft and 150mg Wellbutrin. My thing is I will feel better for a short time then it seems to go right back. Does anyone have any advice? I feel like I will never be myself again. I am seeing a counselor but I don’t feel like she is very helpful.

[Ladybug9]

Oh the side effects from anti depressants! I had serious anxiety from Wellbutrin as well and many others. I think I've tried them all to no avail. I was on Prozac the longest but found I was unable to cry and felt I was void of emotions. I stopped it all. I've been with my Psychiatrist for over 10 years and she had me take a test to see why nothing was working for me. I either had bad side effects, or no effect. We now use talking and I also have a wonderful Therapist. I have them all... Bi-polar, environmental depression, clinical and SAD. And that's just the depression part. Honey, you HAVE to get over what happened 4 years ago. When I was married to my boy's dad, he cheated on me with my bestfriend and also took "bennies" which they were called back then. One day he took 100 at once and fell asleep! I walked in to our apartment with a rifle laying next to him. Back then, Bennies were equivelant to Meth now but in a much smaller scale as far as what it does to the body. But it still ruins relationships and the person taking the stuff.

You are never going to find happiness and get control of your depresssion if you don't let go of the past. The sky is above you, the Earth is below you, but now it's time to find the fire within you. I don't think I mentioned that I was pregnant with my first son when my ex did all that to me. You cannot save him, he has to save himself! I'm sure you have heard the term, tough love? I remember I had gone to a therapist who was a woman and she told me I had the eyes of a witch. Last visit with her! If you don't feel comfortable with this woman or don't feel she is helping you, please find someone else. It's so important to be comfortable and build trust with our therapists... They are listening to our deepest secrets as well as our deepest pains and fears. Trust HAS to be there. I'm available anytime you want or need to talk. You can send me a private message as well. You are never alone with your fears. Hugs

[pink318]

Hi- I’m so sorry to hear about your struggles. It may be hard to let go but I pray that you will have the strength to do so.

I have a sister who experienced abuse from her husband and decided to leave with her daughter. She’s a full-time Mom with no income but because of that abuse she still decided to leave her husband. Me and my other sisters are her support group. I cried and prayed for her. I encouraged her to ask God to help her to forgive her husband. I chat with her almost everyday just to let her know that she’s not alone in her journey.

It’s been almost 3 years since she left her husband and because of prayers and encouragement, my sister and my niece are both doing OK. I want to encourage you to talk to someone you can trust or feel free to share in the group. If you think you are not comfortable with your therapists, you might want to consider finding a new one.

I hope you will feel better soon. Keep us posted, we are here for each other. Praying for you that you will stay strong. God bless.