College is worse than hell.. but a bit hopeful

[Ivy_chan5]

I'm currently in my Second Year and (was) thinking of focusing on English Literature as my main subject. But now I'm regretting it. None of the other subjects interest me . Economics is one of my subjects which I can study well and I always tend to score the highest scores in it. But I'm not that interested in it.. nor do I have the ' Economics student's perspective ' as our teacher calls it.. I just study what's taught.. the problem is that I love other two subjects ( English Literature and Psychology) more than Economics but I HATE the syllabus and I HATE the way these subjects are taught. Whenever we have these lectures, I just log in ( as we have online classes) and I keep the audio and video off or I simply go to the kitchen, help my mom with something or simply sleep.. I CANNOT even manage to listen to these lectures for a minute. All the topics in Literature are about 'naturalism' (fate against man .. and the protagonist either dies or ends up more miserable than before) and we have 12 such stories to study and analyse.. and remaining stuff is 18+ .. like we can be taught about such stuff in a formal way.. it is necessary.. but not in a way which feels like you are reading porn.. it is disgusting.. and the teachers seem way too excited .. and every topic has such stuff.. In Psychology, people just talk about anxiety and depression and emotions like they're as simple as breathing.. they're being insensitive toward the ones like us who are really struggling .. they just feel like one should wear a medal saying I'm depressed as it is cool... the teacher doesn't even bother to correct these students.. it's just been a month since our academic year started.. and I am already done with it.. I have talked to my mother about it.. both my parents will support me.. but I have almost zero chances of changing my stream.. because the admissions might have closed in every other college.. typing it here relieved my stress a lot.. hoping that I find a way out soon..😊

[Joseph43]

Hello.

I feel you. Find the right course can be as difficult as finding the right person to spend the rest of your life with. There will always be something that you like and something that you hate in any course you decide to take. I graduated in English language but in a foreign country. Send me a private message if you would like to discuss it.

Best of luck!

[Ivy_chan5 in reply to Joseph43]

Sorry for replying late. Thank you for reply. I understand what toy have said.😊 I decided against changing my subjects .😊 I am doing well in my studies now.

[Hidden]

It's just your second year, I'd give yourself a little leeway to explore some different subjects. I'm not a big fan of online learning myself, but hey, appreciate that you are learning about something. Knowledge is power.

[Ivy_chan5 in reply to Hidden]

Yes. I understand. Thank you so much. 😊 Sorry for replying late. I am not changing my subjects.. I am feeling better now.