I can't make it through the night. please help

[Rey_Canyon]

I lost the only person I love to a toxic friend of 11 years who I cut out because they mentally, physically, and sexually (MY BEST FRIEND SEXUALLY ASSAULTED ME MANY TIMES OVER 6 YEARS AND USED IT AS BLACK MAIL) and also assaulted the person I loved and they couldn't associate with me because I associated with him and I DIDN'T WANT TOO BUT I HAD CRIPPLING FEAR OF HIM AND HE HAD SO MUCH FUCKIN CONTROL OVER ME. And now I have neither of them in my life and the person I loved was the only one who knows and embraces the fact that im gay and trans and with how hateful and violent the world is to trans people ill never be comfortable to come out. IM FUCKEN DONE, I GOT NOTHING LEFT THERE IS NOWHERE TO GO AND THE WORLD KEEPS GETTING WORSE.

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Calm down, take deep breaths. Everything is not as bad as you think it is. I'm sorry your hurting.