I thought i recovered but

[Mia_love]

Now a days very feequently i feel nervous and anxious about something . I dont konw why and for what ... i just want to do better i want to be better than this but everything is so blurry and confusing . I dont understand where i am what i ought to do ... and i end up wasting time and i dont want to regret and feel guilty to death when tge deadline comes .. but i am glad that ve almost got over my depression but before i was on the verge of death but now its a very slight possiblity ... but i really dont see my future it just feels like i am never going to get past 11 th ...its just very tiring and .. i have no enthusiasum to wake up and study its just something i ought to do ... this is really not a life i want to live .. not a way in which i want to live .

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Hang in there. If you’re in 11th grade, you have a whole life ahead of you. In my freshman to junior year, I was thinking what’s the point, I was bedridden, not studying, failed a couple classes and even took a semester off. Personally, after changing my major to do what I wanted to do gave me kind of a fresh start and am building up from there. That “what’s the point?” feeling just doesn’t go away. You just have to keep reminding yourself of the possibilities that lie ahead.

One YouTube channel I found that got me started on my self-improvement journey is called Better Ideas. One thing that really stuck out to me was that self-improvement doesn’t have an endgame. They’re just habits and things we need to develop and enjoy that make us better. Just pick any video that sticks out to you.

A couple books that helped me out are: the War of Art by Steven Pressfield and How to Become a Straight-A Student: The Unconventional Strategies Real College Students Use to Score High While Studying Less by Cal Newport

Finally in this COVID-19 situation where you feel like staying in bed all day and classes are online, I found that “study with me” videos increase my productivity,

Just so you know I still have anxiety and depression. I still don’t have a clear picture of my future but living in the present making these small improvements has taken me a long way. I hope the best for you. Don’t hesitate to message me if you wanna talk more

[Mia_love in reply to Hidden]

I will get on these today itself its a holiday today . So .. ill get back to you . Thank you, i will try again . I am really grateful .