Terminated from job...hopeless

[angelface1034]

Hello everyone I recently just lost my job due to covid-19 but also because of my mental state...Long story short....the job lied to me and my mental health was suffering because of it..I would have a complete and full mental breakdown every day before work because i was so unhappy and so heartbroken that they were treating me this way! I was getting used and doing things that were not part of what i was promised.

(On top of that, the manager was so manipulative and mean...but only to me!)

After telling them that I could not continue to do these things, not even an hour later they reported me to HR and had me terminated. A part of me was relieved that i never had to go back and work in that environment but the other part of me completely lost control. Anxiety started to roll in. I just graduated college, this was supposed be my career. I feel like i lost literally everything. I’m going to get straight to the point...I am not doing well at all. I feel helpless and worthless. I feel so angry that this happened, I felt like I was too naive. I guess this is one of the things that I always imagined being a deep fear of mine... like I would always say and think to myself if this ever happened to me I wouldn’t be sane... I’m literally living in my own worst nightmare. I come from nothing...my family has nothing and it’s up to me to make something out of myself or else I will

be left with nothing too. Of course I’ve been looking for jobs...but with little luck which makes me feel horrible about myself. My body is physically and mentally suffering so much. This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through. I just ask for some support and good vibes. I am at a loss here🥺

[Clarrisa]

I struggled with my career. I never had to contend with the corona virus while working so I feel for you. My father, who was a manager use to tell me “There will always be work for those who want to work.” I wish good luck with your future endeavors.

[Clarrisa]

Does your alma mater have a alumni association you could join? If so do they have a local chapter? Does your college have a college placement office/service you could still utilize if you are not already?

Does your line of work have any sort of professional organization you could join for support? I worked as a nurse & joined the Academy of Med-Surgical Nurses (in the states). They had local chapters in many parts of the country. It was a wealth of valuable information.

Some independent contractors get together in monthly meetings. Many fields publish professional magazines of some sort or another.

Two young persons I personally have known needing career adjustments both took computer courses during their career down time, & eventually succeeded in landing suitable work (However they live in Silicon Valley).

It may also help to debrief your poor experience in a career counselor’s office too. Please check in with your doctor should things have really gotten to you. I wish you good luck again during your transition from academics to the too often crazy world of office politics. There are some awful bosses out there as you’ve discovered the hard way. Take care.

[Myre]

This is definitely a tough situation for you. I am sure that the reality of your situation is weighing down on you not to mention you believe that you are not equipped with the right provisions to fight it. Anxiety will make you feel a million times less than what you really are, it's often a struggle to wade through the negativity and the overwhelming hopelessness. So let me tell you what I see; a passionate and determined individual. You sound like it was no easy feat getting where you are today, you've got a history of triumph, this is just one more hurdle for you to cross.

[pam4him]

It sounds like a blessing in disguise. This could give you some time to work on yourself. I know you went to college for a career, but consider for now possibly taking a less stressful job. It could help to do something less difficult temporarily while looking for something in your field. With the pandemic, hiring processes will have to adjust and lapses in employment in certain fields will be less questioned. Lastly, you are not worthless. You are alive, and all life has purpose. It may take some time to find that purpose, but know there is one. Do what you can one minute, one step, one day at a time. In the meantime, try to do some self care - meditation, journaling, yoga are all relaxing techniques that may help. Prayers for peace, wisdom and strength.

[angelface1034 in reply to pam4him]

I love this...thank you so much for your kind words.

[SingerCici]

I would say lots of people have been terminated a some point in their life. It’s not a reflection of who you are , sometimes it’s for the best-a blessing in disguise. If you’re applying for other jobs you could say you were furloughed and the location they called you back at was too long of a commute and/or didn’t work out. Especially in these current times, people are understanding.