Safe
A feeling that I long for yet barely know
Enough
What every man wanted yet I couldn’t afford to even loan
Beautiful
An unrealistic fantasy of everything I long to be
Complete
Something impossible had God not lead you to me
You stepped into my life
In a time when I felt the most alone
You smiled, laughed, protected, encouraged, and helped me grow
You made me believe I had more to give than just my tears and fears
More to give then open cut wounds
More to receive than fake love and abuse
You gave me the opportunity to be a sister and a friend
You became the perfect role model for what I needed in a man
My superhero
My protector
My best friend
You made me feel safe
A feeling I’ve longed for yet barely understand
You made me enough
Even though my change was all I had left
You made me beautiful
Because you saw me for who I am
God made me complete
The day he brought you into my plans
But now I ask for myself
Because I fear losing you more then you may understand
Will you stay with me?
Even when I’m old and grey?
Will I be enough to satisfy all your wants and needs one day?
Will you lay in my arms and feel safe and at peace instead of alone?
Will I make you feel handsome in the same way you made me feel beautiful and at home?
Will my weaknesses and strengths compliment yours too?
Will I be able to inspire you?
I know I may not qualify to be your loving bride
But I pray to God daily that I will always be by your side
I know it sounds foolish and maybe a little extreme
But I guess that’s what happens when you choose to want someone like me
I’m loyal to fault
I give all I have to give
I may only have a remnant left but I hope it’s enough to let me in
To let me into your heart in the same way you do mine
Whether it be as lifetime friend or bride
So, will you stay with me?
Shall we take this risk?
I’m terrified of this love blooming and fear it’s all I have left
But if I don’t have the courage to find out if I should be with you
I know I would regret it someday
Wouldn’t you?
So, will you stay with me?
Even if it’s just a little while?
Will you answer these questions with me?
Even though they make me feel like a child.
I truly hope you do
And that we both receive the clarity we need
In the meantime
Thank you for always being there for me