Feel out of control and like an entirely different person

[Zoeebird]

For the past two years I've been growing more and more concerned with my mental and emotional state. Everyday I feel on edge and not connected to the world around me. I feel like I'm floating outside my body. I don't feel a connection to the person I see in the mirror. I feel unstable especially with my emotions. One minute I could be having a great conversation with someone, the next minute it's like a switch flipped and I'm so aggressive or pissed off at the person for no reason or I'll start becoming morose or sad for no reason. I don't know what's going on with me. I feel like I'm slowly going insane and no one is noticing. Everyday is just a pain to get up and put on a smile and pretend I'm okay. Theirs so much hate and hurt in my heart and I just can't move on past it. What do I do? What's going on with me? I need help because it's just too much and I'm struggling to handle it all.

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Hi zoe, I feel the same way sometimes but you’re not going insane! I can tell you that right now. But have you been hurt in the past by someone? I know it can be tough. Have you tried therapy or mindfulness? There’s a wonderful app or website called Headspace! I believe they have youtube videos as well..

[Lazy_dog_lover]

Ok, deep breath.

Tell me what you fear most.

Tell me what you have tried that helped.

Tell me what you have tried that did not help.

Sounds like you are spinning. If every waking moment you are concentrating on the issue, it will eat you alive. Reframe it and pick one good thing about each day. Find one way to unwind. Find one distraction.

Peace.

[Sprinkle1]

I know the feeling, which is a lie. My therapist told me 30 years ago, I was very sane, if I was going insane it would happen and I would not know it. Can you go to a therapist, or have phone contact with one that will help you find your roots and peace. Can you exercise, long walks are good in nature, ride a bike, swim if there is a pool handy. Find a nice peaceful hobby that will engage your time, I like coloring books, I am growing a veg, herb and flower garden on my deck. I have two lovely cats that keep me company. I used to do volunteer work at the local library, but that was shut down. I bought a book on Rock Painting, I did some about 16 years ago, want to freshen up on it and get started again. This year I took a pine straw weaving class, that was lovely. Jigsaws can be fun and time consuming, keeps the hands and mind busy. Also word puzzles, find things that please you. Can you meditate that is very useful, it took me a while to get the hang of it, I have used it for years. Hope this is of help for you, write to us, we offer support and love, sending Peace, love n hugs.......