I need help! How do I do this?

[LexiLee]

I am so lost tonight. My anxiety and depression are getting the better of me. I found out that the person I love and want to spend the rest of my life with cheated on me. He got drunk at the bar tonight and told me everything. He says he doesn’t want to make things work and that it’s my fault he cheated. I feel so unloved and betrayed. I know this is probably gods way of telling me I need to get out of this relationship ship. Because God has been showing me he isn’t good for me but I refused to see any of it. I forgave every lie, every time he was hurtful to me I would apologize, I did anything and everything to try to make him happy and be good enough for him. But I guess God made him hurt me so I have no choice but to let go. But still knowing this deep down, I continued to grasp at him when I knew he left me a long time ago. I almost feel better forgiving him for the cheating and the emotional abuse compared to the alternative. That I let this happen to me knowing full and well what I was getting into and still I stayed and fought. I don’t know how I’m going to wake up tomorrow and go to work and go through the motions of the day knowing I’m alone. I just don’t know how to do it.

[hypercat54]

God didn't make him hurt you. He is a lying cheating scumbag who decided to do that all on his own. Never change yourself for anyone as appeasement doesn't work and just attracts even more abuse as you have found. Thank goodness you have seen sense and let him go. Make him keep walking a long way from you.

Go to work with your head held high and renewed self esteem. You deserve a lot better than this and now you are free to find a decent man who will treat you much better.

[LexiLee in reply to hypercat54]

Thank you. I needed to hear that.

[hypercat54 in reply to LexiLee]

You are very welcome. Congrats on taking your life and power back. You should be very proud of yourself.