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[nss23]

Hello. I am a 27 year old mom and I am a secondary school teacher.

I've had depression since 2010. Undiagnosed until 2017.

I think with me, depression comes in the form of this ghost of past memories that haunts me and fills me up with rage, anger, regret, shame and guilt. I had a breakdown and I didn't come into work for months because I was so anxious to go to work. I used to teach at a local sixth form college before my department moved me to a secondary school since I've been skipping work. They thought the move would help but I was moved to a school where the students are troubled, disrespectful, and talk back at you. So now I am stuck in a job I can't get out of but at the same time, my mental health is declining.

I want to recover from this illness desperately. It has taken so much out of me up to a point I don't know who I am anymore. I have to be better for my child. I don't want him to be raised by a weak mother or let him hate me because I wasn't strong enough for him.

[mrbradyhimself]

Hello. Im 28 and am dealing with similar struggles. I've become so filled with anxiety that I've been out of work for 6 months. Im struggling with my relationship with my wife and fear that I cant give the attention to my son that he needs from me. I know its not much help but I want you to know your not alone. Im not going to give up on me for my family. Every day is a struggle, but some days it gets a little better .

[Hidden]

Hi and welcome!👋

Thanks for teaching the next generation, even though they can be little sh*ts at that age. I remember my 7th grade class being deemed the worst by every single teacher at the school. I hated the stigma since I was one of the "good" ones. I blame my parents.🤪

[sunandbutterfly]

Hello. So sorry to hear of the struggle that you find yourself in. I am sure that the position that you are in is a difficult one. I wonder how many of the kids that you are teaching have similar struggles and are also crying out for help. You mentioned that you were diagnosed in 2017? Have you seen a counselor and/or physician to help? Would you care for any additional resources that may be helpful?

I know that journaling, exercise, and counseling have been helpful for me. Different things help different people.

Also, none of us are perfect. Unfortunately, that is sometimes reflected in how we raise our kids. It won't be perfect, but your child will appreciate your presence. Hope that helps.