I can feel more

[shewolf_]

Lately I’ve been taking my medication every other day . I guess I notice that without it i’m a little happier and I can feel more emotions . I cry more. I like the sensation of crying letting the pain flow from eyes . I know they say take my meds everyday but at this point I just doing whatever . My therapy sessions aren’t helping enough . I’ve never had any other therapist so I don’t know if this is the best that it gets or if I’m just not gaining much from it . I feel like I’m the happiest person in my friend group but the one that is only hiding behind that persona . Because deep down I’m in so much pain . Trying to distract myself is okay at times but i’m only fooling myself .

[kingduke]

wow- your post resonated with me- almost every time i go on antidepressants i hit a phase where i have suicidal ideation- and back down on my med. so last couple days i also only take it every other day. My primary care provider is away- and it always embarrasses me that i feel this way. And try to power through it.

[Agora1]

Hi shewolf_ it doesn't surprise me that you feel more in touch with yourself

when off your medication. However, it is always best to let your doctor know

that you are skipping every other day. Depending on the medication, it may not

be a wise thing to do. Most meds are made to calm your mind which unfortunately,

can take away your emotional feelings as well.

Crying is a release for those emotions. Therapy sessions can be beneficial with

your medication if you are working on yourself as well. Just popping a pill doesn't

do it. Talking sessions allow you to express your emotions but you need to work

on the root of the problem as well as moving forward. If you don't then you stay

stuck. xx

[Sprinkle1]

I agree with Agora, If it is OK to take med's every other day, that may be all you need. As far as the therapist, perhaps you should try a different one. Talk it over with your Dr. One always has to get to the root of what upsets us so, and I find talk therapy very helpful. With the right therapist it can heal so many wounds and help us grow into the people we are meant to be. For myself I depend on antidepressants as my brain does not function properly, been this way since childhood, I am 78 now. So the med's and therapy help keep me sane. I wish you well, send you strength, peace, love n hugs......Sprinkle 1......