Since 2016 i have delt with my anxiety and depression getting worse. Everyday i worry, over think, get agitated, sad, and dissociate. I've gone to the doctor for meds, he's tried a few types, none have really worked. I can't really afford therapy either. My mind set is becoming more foggy and stressed each day.
Distractions and other methods help some, but none ever clear the fog.
I don't feel like myself, I feel like a stranger to myself. Im scared im going to lose it.
Im only 18, and im struggling so hard to get along each day...
Please tell me there's hope.
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Hello Lindsey, Yes there is hope! I have been struggling with anxiety since high school im now 27 years old with 4 little ones and till this day I struggle but its just how to learn to cope with it.
Remember Anxiety is not dangerous it doesn't kill you but its frustrating.
When you feel anxiety coming over your body run, go out for a brisk walk or do something that keeps your mind distracted! Its all up to you im not saying its easy but I have faith in you 🙏
Nothing but positive vibes your way♡
Here is a poem I found. Hope it helps you. Your so young to be having this kinda life and you have so much to live for....
I don't know what I want sometimes, But I know that I want to know what I want..
I know that once I know what I want I will be able to get it.
Of course, I may not want what I get when I get it....
But , at least I will know I don't want that !
Then, I can move on to something else I don't know if I want.
That's Progress !
I hope this helps. You have a road before you that is your choice. No choice is bad, lessons to learn are always there...
I hear you and feel you since your title is exactly what I’m repeating in my mind everyday. I’m on antidepressant and somewhat better than before now. I truly hope you can find an med that will work for you.
You are going to feel lot of intense and strong emotions. Sometimes it will feel like they go on forever and the Depression and Anxiety brings so many blows. Nothing seems real as if your not really apart of this world.
However...the days, weeks, months will not always be dull and empty. You will have good days - and bad - but that's not to say your going to have a bad life.
Time is a funny thing, and Life goes on - But that's not to say what you're going through doesn't matter because it does. Your feelings and emotions matter. You matter. Life will go forward and it will go fast. Life will go forward for you and this part of your life isn't going to be all of it.
When times feel so confusing and not knowing where to or who to turn to, Trust that you know and understand yourself a lot more than you think. You will grow and become wiser and learn so much more about yourself and who you are as a person. You will learn so much about the Depression and Anxiety and what that does to or even for you.
Sometimes the answers you seek are within yourself, you only need to ask and be honest. And with that, you will change because you will know more. Mental illness changes people. Pain changes people. Your not going to be the same person as you once were and that's okay!
There are going to be times when you question "whats the point?" and you going to have to remind yourself that the point is to keep on living, keep on going and stay strong for yourself.
I will say this: You will look back on this time and be proud that you managed to get through this struggle and with that will come an inner strength that you will carry for times when you need it most.
No one is you and that is your power. Just by being yourself, you put something wonderful in this world that was not there before. You are enough. Just as you are.
I never really understood the term "normal" But the only thing that matters is how you feel about yourself. Try not to put too much pressure on having to think you have to go back to yourself and be normal again, its all a learning curve and a journey.
There is hope! And light...from the sunshine when you look up towards the sky! and joy and happiness you will feel again. Don't give up and stay strong - it' going to be okay! and when it doesn't feel like it, just know it will pass because time doesn't stand still.
I felt a similar way at 18. I'm 23 now and so these are the things i would say to my 18 year old self. I hope my rambling has helped you in some way!
I hope tomorrow you have a brighter and better day, because i will tell you this; There's going to be many more ahead!
There definitely is hope. You need to find a good psychiatrist who can put you on the right meds. Don’t lose hope.
Dear Linsey
If you are taking meds and still depressed, they need to switched your meds! I can't live a normal life without meds!
Hi Lindsey14, there is hope! Change doctors! The doctor has you on the wrong meds. You should not be still feeling the way you are. You need a doctor that will give your case more attention. If you have insurance go to a physiatrist they will make sure you are on the right meds and they have more knowledge than a M D. I go to one for my meds, now I am living a normal life.
There is DEFINITELY hope. I felt the same exact way when my panic attacks happened and I found myself asking the same thing, I just want to feel the way I did before. I can tell you from my experience that it will get better but it does take time and that is the hard part, especially when you feel like crap. The main thing that I can tell you is too not listen to that enemy in between your ears as it is out to get you and would love to keep you down.
When you feel like you don't want to do something or are paralyzed with fear, you need to get up and MOVE. Even if it is walking around the block or your house. This creates a distraction in your thought process and blocks the negative thoughts. MOTION creates EMOTION. I would also make sure you are exercising even if you don't want to (get an accountability person). Try and eat right (easier said than done, especially if you are like me and like sweets and more so when you feel like crap). Get fresh fruits and vegetables and limit your red meat as it has toxins that tend to increase anxiety. I would also start taking Vitamin C and B.
In regards to the medication, unfortunately, it takes time as it needs to build up in your system before you fell the benefit and if it is not the right one, then it takes longer to find the right one and the right balance but I can tell you the regimen I am on works great for me.
Finally, I saw you don't have insurance but I know there are some non-profits out there that could possibly help out with that. Finally, I would make sure you are journaling so you can see what triggers you as well as your progress. You are young and you have your whole life ahead of you.
I pray that you will find what works right for you and that you will find some relief.
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