I cant go back

I enjoyed myself today for the first time in probably 20 years...I never imagined the misery a human can go through could be so much. I was a happy kid sometimes, looking back it was more like a manic bipolars happiness. This is the first time I've ever been centered and at peace. It is possible to come back from the deepest of depths of depression and despair.

[Starrlight]

❤️ 💕 💗

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Right back at you star❤🙂

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

How are you doing? Still in a good place I hope.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Yes I'm doing well. Thanks star. Hope you're doing okay. I want you to be well too🙂

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thank you 🙏 😊

[shewolf_]

i’m happy for you

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So happy for you!!

[Agora1]

Slushy47 Embrace the feeling xx

[PastelPink20]

Thank you for sharing!! So glad to hear about how you’re doing. To be at peace is a serene state to be in - it makes sense to not want to go back!

I hope you enjoy tomorrow as much, if not more, than today.

💕💕💕

[Starrlight]

What do you think helped this breakthrough to occur? I’m happy for you. 😊

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It's a combination of a few things. Number one was figuring out I had thyroid disease after a drug overdose about 6 months ago. Two antidepressants. Three finding out that I most likely have celiac disease because I have most of the symptoms. This disease can deplete your neurotransmitter levels like seretonin by wreaking havoc in your gut where most seretonin is made. So I'm hoping as my gut heals the less I will need antidepressants and my body will produce it's own seretonin, gaba and dopamine.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Amazing ! Thanks for sharing. Healing vibes to you(((((((((((((

[Hidden]

In short I hope so. In my heart I know so. Today

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Thanks friend

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UPDATE: Things are getting much better in the past 28 days. My concentration and energy has gone up considerably. I'm starting to breathe very deeply and just be relaxed in the moment. It's a great feeling. I think things are going to get even better and I could possibly reduce my amount of antidepressant as my thyroid disease is treated and my self diagnosed celiac disease can heal and my body can create more neurotransmitters on its own.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I feel like I'm getting ready to start walking on sunshineee

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As the depression and anxiety is almost fully lifted, I realized that it took everything away from me. It did help me see what is important and I will always be grateful for that. I can never go back there though.

[SunIsShining]

I am so happy for you!

[Hidden in reply to SunIsShining]

Yay!🙂

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If I can reach this point, I'm confident anyone can.

[Kainan]

That's so great to hear! Happy for you <3

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I enjoyed myself yesterday for the first time in a very long time after leaving an abusive marriage. Yesterday I went swimming at a friend's house all day..it was the best..just me and my bestie all day in 100 degree weather... honestly didn't care about sunscreen just enjoyed myself..it was the best.

Yes it's definitely possible for you to make changes in your life. Absolutley a believer!

You have strength and courage 💪. We all do. Dive in !

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

That's awesome🙂. It's always great to have a friend.

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You just joined today and already have more followers than me😂😂😂

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I have 4 awesome ones..quality not quantity and I'm including my friend I'm meeting at the park on a few days. We've been friends a while now...

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Your profile says you have 5. I have 4 lol. That's why I was joking that you already have more and just joined today