I’m Still Deep In The Woods

[Meyer_Gdmnx]

You know sometimes I think I’m doing okay I’ve thought that a few times since this started 5 years ago. But no matter how much the panics faded I always felt like I wasn’t feeling right and I haven’t for years since I failed my exams in all honesty. I’ve just not felt anything real in years no real love no real sadness even when my father died my rock my all the light of my life I felt nothing I cried but had no feedings I’ll occasionally get some summer of emotion but not much. All I have is horrible physical sensations too keep me company. Like headaches dizziness etc exacerbated by wording constantly I’m going to contract covid 19. I just feel so deep in the woods surrounded by trees. I always hear about people who come out of mental beauty issues and overcome them and how amazing it felt. I don’t know that feeling I yearn for that feeling it’s all I want so I am finally get my life started but I don’t feel it it’s something I haven’t experienced. Perhaps I never will

[Lynl]

I deal with slot of anxiety and it can make you fell nothing like you said or over emotional and that’s me. It depends on the day especially now, you worry about everyone you come in contact with. Hope fully anxiety will leave . I’ve always had it even as a kid . I’m going to try EMDR it’s supposed to redirect your thoughts. I also do yoga and cardio drumming. Try and find your escape on something that you enjoy or wish you could enjoy and go for it. Good luck and keep in touch

[Rick1on1]

There's quite a bit to unpack here.

Keep in mind that you are not alone in this stressful time and if you put in the work, you can get better.

What meds are you on? Do you partake in any self-help therapies?

[Meyer_Gdmnx in reply to Rick1on1]

Hi there thank you very much for your reply I really appreciate you taking the time. I’m not on any medication for my condition as I’m too afraid to take it. And I’ve attempted some bit to no avail

[Rick1on1 in reply to Meyer_Gdmnx]

I cant stress enough the importance of speaking to your doctor about this. There are many scary stories out there about the side effects of meds but without them and the advice of a pro - you are not going to get better.

Self-help is difficult but it's a conscious decision to get better. Take little steps and if you backslide - kick yourself under the bum and try again

You can PM me if you want to continue conversing outside of the public domain.

Good luck!