Everyone but 1 is home... busy noisy house... not what I nor dogs are used to but here We all are isolated due to crazy times. 🤔
This is so out of my normal routine I am finding it difficult to be calm... I want to fix everything today which is not possible so I am so afraid to say the wrong thing that destroys the somewhat harmonious vibe happening.
Why am I putting so much pressure on myself? Why can’t I go with the flow? I am trying so hard not to self sabotage everything... this is being screamed inside my head btw...
So outside on the porch is where me and dogs escape to to just breath..drink a cuppa tea and vape my meds... 🌷🦄
Needed to vent... 😊 clearing out room for positive sunlight to brighten the dark twisted parts inside my head...😉
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I am reading your post positively green with envy as I would much prefer to be in a noisy household than on my own. I am so missing human company I could scream!x
It’s noisy but we are always in different rooms doing different things not speaking, so I am still alone really... It’s really quite awkward and tense feeling.... I am making what is supposed to be calzones to go along with a tomato veg soup I made yesterday...
I so regret packing away my stand mixer... making dough without it really sucks... 😂 this may pan out to be a tasty distraction or an example of how not to make a calzone...😂😊
At least it’s still somewhat light out so I can go out for another walk ...
I find I'm experimenting more in the kitchen right now- which is relaxing but a little dangerous when afterwards I'm alone with a plate of toll house cookies with added pecans and dried cherries.
Well soup turned into a veggie chilie... added too much quinoa😂 calzone insides were good... crust not so much... puppies enjoyed that... 😂 It is relaxing and a distraction for sure... nice reward for you and your friend... 😊
I was thinking of taking her out for a walk, but because of people not observing the 6 ft rule, it fills me with stress- BUT then I remembered that aldi has these lightweight portable small greenhouse structures (made out of clear,flexible plastic with stakes)I'll just assemble one; we'll get inside, zip it up and go for our walk.
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