Stuck

[Kathys1964]

I’m over it. I’m stuck in the house by myself and am struggling. I miss my daughter and she doesn’t even care to call me or text. I am on the edge. I really am

[coffeelover1]

try to look for the positives...calming music, reading a good book, hot tea. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. you aren't alone.

[chiara789]

Hang in there 💕 It’s so hard to adjust to social distancing and staying in touch with people you normally see in person. Perhaps, talk to her and tell her how alone you feel. Then, try to schedule a weekly video chat or call.

I know I should do this myself because I’m feeling very lonely. When I get depressed, it becomes so hard to reach out so I think having something scheduled could be easier.

[Kathys1964 in reply to chiara789]

I called her. It was nice but as soon as we said goodbye I busted out in tears. It’s just always been her and I and I’m really struggling. Yes she’s grown but this is just recent and I can’t deal

[Hidden]

Your not alone dear, this generation of kids are the me generation, they only care what you can do for them, not them for you, not even a call ,or text. I’m here I know what your going though!❤️

[Poodie]

Hi all.

My kids, young adult males, would much rather text then call. Even then, I wish they would text me more. Just a How are you ? , Do you need anything ? would help. I think my kids think I am invincible. I wonder if they will ever realize we are older. We r healthy and independent so far. We had them when we were quite old. If we ever need something and ask, they do come through.

I always felt obligated to call my mother. I hated that. It was almost a crime not to, and she was a mean person.

I want my kids to call or text when they want to, not feel obligated. But 😟😟😟 now I think this went too far to the other side.

[Hidden]

I hope you are feeling better. You are not alone. The social distancing due to a spreading pandemic has amplified the distance that was there a year ago. For me, anyway. Or many years ago. My last social event: I remember saying, I do not think my mom has called me in almost 30 years, longer than the person I was talking to has been alive. If I stay there with that thought, it can be soul crushing. I cry and then switch to something else, anything else. Sometimes I throw things (but for awhile, I was out of glasses.... and glass was everywhere for days). Most of my family calls are about death, dying, catastrophes. I've learned to despise the phone. I have a love hate relationship with. I prefer seeing people in person.

I've been rediscovering music(ians) and Marie Kondoing my house. I don't think any of us can think with much clarity for a very long period of time. Because of my depression and anxiety, I have a lot of experience dealing with not leaving the house, leaving the house, not talking to people, reaching out and being shut down, people ceasing all communications with me (because you know, I'm depressed), etc. In some respects, it feels like an old hat (or so the expression goes). In others, because we are not supposed to be going out (as much, I guess), it is slightly different.

This will be difficult. When (if?) I make it through, I will complete what was supposed to be my Year (2019) Now Turned 18 months of Transformation Video with a new hairdo and if I can stay on my exercise and food routine, a slightly changed body.

May we all find some peace today. That is often what I think at least once a day.