Hanging in there

[Bluzzle]

This week I have been feeling like avoiding everything. This does nothing but makes my anxiety about the things I'm avoiding worse, I know this, but it almost feels good. I just wish I could run away from everything for a while and be someone else. I feel pretty lucky in life, but I just feel like its a never-ending cycle of sameness and it gets lonely and bland. This is when I begin to feel those old feelings of self-destruction. It's odd how you can do things against yourself and feel good about it, even if you hate yourself later for it. I've become better at recognizing this feeling and moving around it, but sometimes it sounds enticing. Sometimes I wish I could just break down and let it out, even when I do it always seems to sink back in after a while. It is a process indeed.

[brokenlight]

Thank you for your honesty and for being here ✨

[skidrew]

Thanks I feel the same way when things are tough. Run, run, run until I crash again. After repeating the same behavior over n over I get the insanity. Now I recognize what I’m running from and try to deal and put it to rest. Takes time, effort and work.