Another Week

[Trav4242]

I have felt depressed for about 20 years and just in the last 6 have had anxiety and now that I am on meds for almost 2 months I have felt better but I am not sure if I trust that feeling either. People have told me I look better, I am sleeping better and I don't have the mood swings like I did before the meds. I know that dark feeling is still there and I don't know if I trust the medication or myself, if that makes any sense. There are always these thoughts in the back of my mind that I will never get better. I still have bad days just like all of the nice people I have met here in this chat room, all we do is put on a fake smile and go about our day and hope I don't see anyone I know at the store or at the Dr's Office. I still wonder how so many of us get to the point of where we are and why we feel this way. It makes me feel sad that so many people go through this crap.

[BlackLaborador]

Hi Trav4242.

Nice to meet you. I am depressed, and trying to find ways to feel better. A lot of things are easy for me to say, and hard to do. But I hope, some words I wish to believe to be true can help someone, at least for a few seconds. Not everyone is created equal. You should try to ready up a book called, Barking Up The Wrong Tree. I have just started reading today, and so far, I like it. My favorite quote from the book is, "Average can be deceptive. Andrew Robinson, CEO of famed advertising agency BBDO, once said, "When our head is in a refrigerator and our feet on a burner, the average temperature is okay. I am always cautious about averages." What I am getting at is, there are always places where we belong and we need to find the right "temperature" that we belong in. And we need to have hope that we can get there.

[Trav4242 in reply to BlackLaborador]

I will have to look into that. Thanks. Some days are just so confusing. I wake up and I am up and by afternoon I'm down the next day is opposite some days I dont have feelings. On top of all of that I have a ton of pain because of my bad back, neck and nerve damage so some days I cant get out of bed for very long or my feet get so damn cold it takes 3 or 4 hours wrapped up in a heated blanket to get them warmed up. It seems like it's just one thing after another