Too scared to end it

[Mifresita]

Sometimes I really feel like ending it all but I’ve attempted in the past to drown myself in the bath and it is really scary. The fear makes me not want to try it anymore. But sometimes I think: fear lasts only for a bit, death will last forever. Which honestly sounds peaceful to me. Saying it sounds crazy.... fear and guilt hold me back.

[NeelixandDelilah]

I know you think you will never get through this. I know you think life will never be the same again. I know you think no one has ever experienced this pain and that no one can help you. But I am here to tell you your brain is playing tricks on you. You WILL get through this. Your depression will eventually lift. I hope you can find the courage to talk to your loved ones about this. If not, keep reaching out.

[Agora1]

Mifresita, you are so young with a whole lifetime ahead of you.

The next time you have that thought of "fear lasts only for a bit,

death will last forever" remember if it is not your time, you could

end up an empty shell of a person. Not able to speak and yet able

to hear the sobs of family and loved ones around you. That could

make your lifetime feel like an eternity.

I've seen this happen to young people all too often. It's something

to think about. I care about you as do others on this forum. xx

[NightOwl2020]

I know this is said over and over again, but it is true. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You may be going through the worst hell right now. You may think you will never get better. You may think all hope is lost. I myself was sent to the psych ward for being suicidal. I had a plan to throw myself down a long flight of stairs. But your life WILL get better, and for all we know we may only live once. Please don't give up. If a stranger on the other side of the world can tell you they care there are a lot more than me. You matter. Losing you would be losing a gift, a very special and unique person, who means a lot more to the world than they know right now.

[jujubeezz]

I have felt that way myself And thought the people I love would better off. Not, there is only one you and no one can take you place for those that love you.

I did try once and woke up with two black eyes in a mental hospital. No matter how bad I have felt since than I just think if I did that I could wake up in a worse state.

You will get better it takes time which sounds lame but it’s true.

Take care.

[jasonbourne]

I really hope things improve for you and you feel better really soon. I've never felt suicidal but I've felt life is not worth living but when you can put everything into perspective it's always come out as it's not as bad as that and life always wins but the problem is sometimes you can lose that perspective. I pray you are able to get through your tough time.