I don’t know who I am anymore.

How can I stop being such a shitty person?

I feel disgusted with myself. Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been alright. I told myself I would do better because I wanted to be better. But now? I feel like I don’t even wanna live anymore. I don’t know how to act, how to be, how to talk, I feel like I need to start over somehow.

[gemmaforest]

well at least some part of you has the 'want to start over ' feeling--that means that at least in a minimal way you have hope. you just need one little subatomic particle of hope to keep you in the game. maybe in a little while u will have more. remember feelings are transitory though i know it often feels like they will never pass. eventually they will. how can u be a shitty person? even without knowing you i feel safe in wagering that this would be extremely difficult to substantiate. first of all, you're a pisces...right? Pisces rule, man! I'd spend time w a Pisces over any other sign in the Zodiac. truth! secondly simply in asking the question you demonstrate self-reflection and sensitivity, pretty much rendering the possibility of u being a shitty person a non-issue. what could u have done that was So Bad? did you hurt somebody? maybe you let yourself down regarding a goal or promise to yourself. it isn't all or nothing, Mundy P. there's a thing called gray and i bet if anything you are somewhere in that area. definitely leaning towards the Non Shitty Person end of the scale. i suspect you are likely a notably Good person who is going through a really tough time. Be gentle Be good to yourself. and be strong. --G

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Well Pisces aren’t that bad so I’ll give you that. Thank you I really appreciate this, but I keep unknowingly repeating the same hurtful patterns. Hurting a person that cares a gigantic amount about me along with myself. You’re right, more self compassion and Pisces rock.

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Thankyou so much I’ll check those quotes out.