I really don't know how to handle this, but trying for some sunshine..

[wanttoliveagain]

I have been fighting with this feeling from more than 7 years n from the past two years every night I'm controlling cutting my nerve after realizing the end of my suffering will start making my family and friends life suffer more than I do. I don't know why everyone trusts me n I can be as good as before, I lost everything. After almost 4 months of a tough fight managed to get a good job, but not able to focus on it due to the weight of my foolishness n mistakes I made.. In another 30 mins, a new year starts for everyone here n all are having a great time I don't want to ruin their movement so I just staying here n watching them having fun.. Hopefully ill also get a new life, I know it's impossible to get out of my debts but still, I'm here n thinking how can I get back to my life again.. Sorry I'm Lil drunk after 4 months I'm not able to convey my feelings better than this.. Lots of confusion n lots of thoughts .. Anyway happy new year in advance my dear friends..

[Agora1]

Happy New Year my friend...now that we are into the 2nd day of 2020, how

are you feeling? Might it be time to let go of the foolish mistakes that were made?

We're human, we all make decisions that may not be the best at the time. But we

have to let go or we stay stuck and can't enjoy the moment. xx

[wanttoliveagain in reply to Agora1]

Thank you Agora1, I am trying to overcome this feeling my best, but others keep on reminding me. Hopefully I will get a way out soon..

[Agora1 in reply to wanttoliveagain]

The best thing you can do for yourself right now is to turn a deaf ear to

those who are instigating your doubts and fears to rise. You can get out

of debt, it may take time but you will feel better for it. You can get your

life back again, one step at a time. Believe in yourself and don't allow others

to put you down. xx

[wanttoliveagain in reply to Agora1]

Thank you Agora1 for your support and kindness, I will try to be strong and focus on my work properly.