Please help

[Sinbad85]

Hi. So I have severe depersonalization /derealisation, depression & had a hint of psychosis. I feel like the woman I was has died. I can’t feel love, so I can’t feel love for anyone I know I should, had a baby 7 months ago. I’m numb, nothing brings me pleasure or joy. Before this I was passionate, loving & an excellent mother. I’m worried that I’m never going to recover or feel like myself again. Was wondering if anyone has any positive stories or outcomes to comfort me.

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Have you talked to your doctor?

It seems it’s taking some time for your brain chemicals to reset. Please remember nothing stays the same. Things always change.

Can you practice:

5 things you touch

4 things you see

3 things you taste

2 things you smell

1 thing you hear

Often throughout the day to keep you present?

Congratulations on the baby.

It took me almost 6 months to bond with my kids and feel emotions. I didn’t tell anyone with my first one. I was young. I didn’t know. I talked about it with everyone on the others.

Get to the doc if you haven’t and use the staying present coping skills. Breathe in the moment often. Breathe out thoughts that aren’t this moment. Deep breaths are very important for good brain health right now.

((((Hugs))))

[Sinbad85 in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thank you. This happened to me before in 2014 with my second baby. I never ever thought I would recover. I did, I forgot all of the bad stuff, I loved my son so much I couldn’t wait to have another & it struck again. I’m in therapy & I started some antidepressants 2 weeks ago as the depression has gotten out of hand. I’m scared I’ll never get to love my children again & I hate that my brain cannot recognise me in the mirror

[Mommasboy270 in reply to Sinbad85]

Do you struggle with past trauma possibly in your childhood or at the hands of your parents? I'm just wondering if the connection with parenting and your childhood experiences is triggered when you have your children? Just curious.

[Sinbad85 in reply to Mommasboy270]

Yeah. My mum & dad fought all the time & there was violence in the house. The thing is though, I don’t get flashbacks or anything when this happens to me. It’s like I completely shut down to the point where I don’t recognise myself

[Mommasboy270 in reply to Sinbad85]

I didn't have flashbacks as much as I had repressed emotions surrounding the traumas. I'd shutdown or run from it so I didn't have to feel the emotional pain because it was too much for me and I wasn't aware until I started breaking from reality to cope. I hope you figure out what os causing it and please listen to your gut if something the Dr says sounds off. You know you the best!