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I’ve been seeing the consequences of my decisions and the fact that I never chose the path of my career that I truly wanted.

I am depressed and anxious that I have missed out on a life that would have been a living one.

My life has been wrought with pain and no love.

Maybe someday I will obtain it. I don’t know. But I feel that I have missed my destiny. :(

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Dolphin14

It's never too late to go back to school. Do what makes you happy.

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Buhbs

Honestly..if you believe in a destiny then you must believe your on a journey that will lead you to a destined path. How is it that we've missed our destiny ? You are still on the road leading to it. Remember that there are many paths we can take to get somewhere. The paths we take that are bumpy right now is probably there so that we can experience and learn from it. It may feel like a dead end, it may feel like I will be here forever but maybe you just haven't learned whatever lesson that was brought to you so that you can ultimately move forward. Regardless of what I think we are to meet the people we meet good and bad to grow; to learn our likes and dislikes, to know what we want and don't need. I feel as though only then can we move forward onto another path. We will always be lead to our destination, there are no wrong turns. Why? Because it's probably destined. ..

and hey.. it's never too late right? Whether you are 5, 20, 50, or 80 years old, we are still living, which means we still have a brain..a brain that can still learn. You can still give it a go at whatever your dream career is as long as you're willing to try, whatever that may be. Even old people have been out there making it as ballerinas and they say oh he/she is too old to make it if they're not like learning from 10 or something. Don't give up okay. I know what that part is like. To be that person feeling stuck and feeling like welp I chose to do this instead of that because it seemed more suitable for me to survive in the future. In the end, my original career goal called my name and shone through after giving up on it along time ago. I am meant to do my best to obtain it and so I dropped what I was doing and went for it and i am still going for it. I went to a HS i hated..a college that I was planning to transfer out from only to have circumstances that made me quit college period.. That was a huge part of my depression and anxiety. So what I did, I forced myself out the door..I made myself get a job. I was finally gaining confidence that was nonexistent and I ended up paying for training in the career that I want. Im still on this path and I feel so accomplished just knocking out goals 1 after another. I know this isn't super detailed but I hope you are inspired to do what makes you happy and take steps to reaching it. It definitely help me see alot of myself that was hidden away for so long and now I am at least "living" while living. You will obtain it. Use them I can and I wills and I'm gonnas they really do have an affect

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LiveandLetLive42

Never too late! I was feeling the same way, like I missed out on a wonderful job, but I found one and yes, I am starting at the bottom but I am hoping it leads somewhere. You have to just go after your dreams!! There's always a way!!

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NWGal

I don't think it's too late to fulfill your destiny friend.

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Shutterbug65

Man.... I know exactly how you feel. But as they say it’s never to late. For me, maybe. Fear is what stopped me, but it doesn’t have to be that way for you. The one thing I know is we all fear the unknown but taking the easy path often leads to the most unfulfilling life. Time goes by quickly so just find your passion and go for it.

I have the same feelings. I was one semester away from my degree as an RN and now I feel like a failure. I was going through a divorce and my mental health was bad so my grades were just not good... I had to drop out. I always intended on going back but it's been 2 years now...

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Two years is nothing! Go for it!

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50percentMe

Dear cbeez - I don't know how old you are, but I'm in my 60's and know exactly how you feel, and now I'm pretty sure it is too late for me, but hope some of my words may help you. When I was in high school, I had an interest in the biological sciences, agriculture and math. Granted I am not wired and don't have an aptitude for math. My parents kept telling me I'm hitting my head against the wall and am not smart like my brother and need to go into something more artistic. Unfortunately, I listened to them and was convinced I couldn't follow my passion. I ended up in jobs that were meant for an extrovert when I was completely an introvert. I was miserable my whole working life, thus I retired as soon as I could. Find out what "floats your boat" and where your passion lies. True, I wouldn't have been a scientist or engineer, but there are other jobs in an environment I love. I was working in environments that like to party and attend social gatherings. I'd rather eat fire and drink gasoline than go with them. I felt isolated and an out cast because it's not who I am. Don't do what I did and try to fit a square peg (me) in a round hole. I should have looked for a square hole even if I wasn't making a lot of money and wouldn't have a lot of recognition. I would have been happy. Your gut is telling you what your heart wants. Follow that lead and go for it. Good luck in finding yourself!

Yeah I kinda understand what you mean, but I'm a sociopath so I say forget about it. I know I screwed up in life all the way around but I'm Irish so I have that going for me. Lol, nah I think "Hey, I've out-lived most everyone else and I'm 63 so those who knew of me then are gone." I've really enjoyed my life the first half-century, it's the downturn of karma that's hit me in the head. Forget the past, there is nothing to change it. Take the lessons learned and file the rest way in the back where they'll be buried. Life isn't Hollywood. Most people go through life living and dying and it matters not. So what? Do you want 15 minutes in the limelight? Shoot up a mall, you'll get it. Destiny? Will you know it if you meet it? To me it's all the same: Fate, Karma, Destiny. It'll happen to you, don't hurry.

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