Always waiting?

I have been hiding this week. I question everything I do , say and share. I'm caught up in a waiting game with life. Always waiting for ___________????

[Michem]

Sometimes it feels like we spend so much time waiting for some phenomenal drastic change that we forget the importance of the little things happening right in front of us, like a new video by your favorite youtuber being the released or Taco Bell’s happy hour drink deal happening daily. Try focusing on the now as much as you can, although that’s easier said than done. There’s so much stuff happening every day that can bring you joy and you’ll never get to fully appreciate it in the moment of you spend all day thinking about tomorrow. i hope this helps a little bit

[Operalady in reply to Michem]

Yes so true! Wise and true!

[Hidden]

Yes like Michem says it’s best to stay in the present and try to enjoy the moment. I know it can be hard.

Also I like this quote, God speaking to the soul, from Thomas aKempis: wait for Me, wait, and I will come and cure thee.

[Operalady]

Hi KCCindy, I understand how you feel KCCindy. The present is all we have. We can plan for future but live in the present! Michem and Phil said such clear truth! Those words of theirs really hit me! I feel I wait too! It is a repetition of what I felt in my family those teen years! We were waiting for relief! Like a dishwasher that never came like mom to stop drinking, like my brain to stop thinking negatively! I tried to stop it , catch it and redirect it ! Classes at College helped me. Filling my mind with knowledge and possibilities really helped! Filling it with beautiful powerful music helped the anxiety. I needed those powerful beautiful things to identify with. I am beautiful I have a beautiful soul when it can be related to and expressed through beauty . Not all beauty is happy . It can be poignant soulfully sad but human and understandable when it can be expressed through music art poetry ! To be against oneself and ones internal life conflict caused me such terror and anxiety attacks that I though my head would explode. Ah such fear and pain. It was Gods gift to me as a child the gift of voice! It held and sustained me through my Whole Life. Opera Singing opens the floodgates of emotions where the unforgettable and the unforgivable emothions have their voices transformed into beauty! Lots of hard hard work my voice has injuries . Also it is natural that the voice changes the vocal chords age ! Like Bolt the fastest runner in the world , has to retire , the body our physical doesn’t stay the same! Enough said for now!

[Hidden in reply to Operalady]

I wish I could hear you sing ! I'm sure it has been rewarding. I understand what you said about college classes filling your mind with knowledge. I miss those days so very much. Thank you for your input. I value what you say 😃 . I enjoy my time doing artwork. Maybe I will share again. It seems to be all there is right now. Before the pandemic, I was doing something way out of character for me. I was learning ballroom dancing at the senior center. All senior centers have been shut down since March. I'm sure I have forgotten all I had learned. If we ever open up again, I hope to start over. Take care!