Bad day

[Gillyflower18]

It’s been a tuff day today. I so tired of all the physical symptoms that come with anxiety and depression! The aches and pains, the constant nausea and knot in my stomach. Yesterday was a decent day so naturally today is the Pitts. I’m so near tears and just trying to make it to my outpatient program tomorrow. I filled a new prescription for an antidepressant yesterday but I don’t want to take it till I get to the program tomorrow. I’m so fearful of side effects like I’ve had with others. The group psychiatrist at least noticed my age and made it the lowest possible dose I could get since I’ve had problems before. I know I need to take it in conjunction with therapy but I’m soooo afraid. I live alone and really have no real support only a sister who doesn’t really understand (she has a good heart) so here and the program are my only outlets. I just feel so bad today but I’m trying to keep going.

[KittenMittens22]

I know it sounds cliche and oversimplified but it really is best to take it day by day. Try and focus on what you can do for comfort and self-care today. You will get through today and hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I completely understand though. I deal daily with nausea, knots in stomach, no appetite, bowl pain, low energy from my anxiety and depression as well. The worst part for me is I have a fear and phobia of feeling sick to my stomach so when I feel like that often it makes the anxiety worse. I try to tell myself “Just get through this minute” “Just get through this hour”, and before I know it I have gotten through the day. Many times I just try to find ways to get my mind off it if possible.

We are here for you on this site and will help anyway that is possible through a site like this.

[Gillyflower18 in reply to KittenMittens22]

Thank you kitten mittens! It helps just to know someone out there understands. I am trying to take it day by day sometimes minute by minute but It’s still hard. The med I’m going on I’ve taken in the past and it has been ok but I’m still scared. I tend to always expect the worst. I’m going to be doing either cbt or dbt with this med so I will have a backup after the program I’m in now. I’ve been struggling with this for 50 years and it just gets old and very discouraging. Sometimes I just have to express it.

[KittenMittens22 in reply to Gillyflower18]

I totally get that. It helps to vent. We are here to listen. I’m sorry you have dealt with it so long. I’m 36 and have felt the worst of it probably for about 15 years and can’t imagine living my whole life like this. It scares me to think I might always have to deal with it.

[Gillyflower18 in reply to KittenMittens22]

Kitten mittens there is much more to help people now than there was when I was young also less stigma. I’m sure you’re taking advantage of it as you go along. It’s harder for an old 🐕 to learn new stuff but I’m still trying! I’d love to hear how you’re doing. 😊