I feel like a wreck

[weegmack]

Hey there everyone. It’s been ages since I’ve posted - just been too overwhelmed with how I feel to put it into words.

So I’ve been really unwell with a horrible flu/stomach virus. My eldest daughter has to come home for a week from uni with it last month and I initially didn’t cope well with it. I have OCD, GAD and Health Anxiety, so I was really struggling to deal with it. My other daughter got it last week, but wasn’t too unwell with it and now I have it. But I am floored. I can barely do anything and all I’ve done is cry. It’s made me so depressed and so, so anxious. OCD is off the charts. My youngest daughter is currently applying to uni and has her first interview tomorrow - and I can’t go with her. It’s over an hour away and I’m just not fit to drive. My husband will go with her, but I literally cannot stop crying about this. It’s eldest daughter’s birthday this week too and then Christmas. I don’t usually make a lot of plans around Christmas, because I get so anxious. But this year, I decided to be brave and make plans and now I’m crying all the time that I won’t be able to go to any of the nice things I had organised. It’s so freaking maddening and I’m also panicking that my husband gets this too.

Rationally, there’s nothing I can do, right? But I just feel so wrecked, upset and anxious 😞. Just wanted to get it out there to people who understand. Xxx

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I'm sorry you're going through this. It sounds like there's a lot on your plate. Do you have a therapist appointment soon? Are you on meds for your conditions? Being physically unwell lowers my ability to deal with my depression and anxiety disorder and my PTSD.

Thank goodness your husband can go with your daughter.

Try to be gentle with yourself. You're sick.

Keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

[weegmack in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you so much ♥️. Her interview seemed to go well but boy did I cry when they left. I feel just as awful today but I’ve just plonked myself on the sofa. Fed up 😞

[angelseraph]

Ugh. Being sick is such a helpless feeling. Try and take care of yourself and don't knock yourself for being human and succumbing to a virus. Elderberry can really help along with plenty of rest.

I'm mega OCD too (I could organize myself into an origami mess lol).

Allow yourself to be okay with not following through with your plans. It's OKAY.

[weegmack in reply to angelseraph]

Yes I get what you mean about the OCD! I didn’t know that about Elderberry - I’ll try and get hold of some. I feel pretty nauseous with this, so I’m finding it hard to stay hydrated 😕

[angelseraph in reply to weegmack]

Yes, elderberry is a very powerful (natural) anti-viral berry from Europe. I make my own elderberry and raw honey syrup each year and take it to weekly fight the baddies.

Coconut milk is VERY effective for treating nausea btw.

Don't you wish you could be a little kid with a mommy to take care of you sometimes? ((Supportive hugs))

[weegmack in reply to angelseraph]

That’s really good advice, thank you ♥️. Thanks for the hugs 🤗. Unfortunately I was raised by a mummy who wasn’t that patient with illness....I have suffered with IBS since I was a child and got pretty ill sometimes. She rarely ever helped me....this is why I have anxiety disorder in the first place. And I’m now the worst for letting anyone in to help me at all 😬😬. That’s why it’s great to talk on here. I’ve found something online called Sambucol, which is an elderberry syrup. I’m hoping my local pharmacy will have it if I can hobble along there tomorrow. It’s expensive, but will help just how I think. Xxx

[DottieLucy]

weegmack, I an so sorry and will pray that you feel better very soon and that your hubby doesn't catch it! For your OCD have you tried meditation? Prayer? Recitations? Again, praying for you!

[weegmack in reply to DottieLucy]

Yeah I pray, but it doesn’t appear to be getting me anywhere just now 😕. I’m a Christian but faith is weak right now.

I’ve had to phone my doctor this morning to get something for the nausea as I haven’t been able to eat since Friday. I’ve been lying awake all night in an absolute panic. I don’t cope well with stomach issues as I’ve had severe IBS all my life and, due to some complicated childhood issues, I cope really badly with it. I just wanted to cry down the phone to the GP about how anxious I feel - it’s very nearly out of control. But it was a GP who wouldn’t be good with mental health, so I didn’t. I’m really struggling to cope with this illness. It’s my daughter’s birthday today and I’m in bed. I can’t seem to shake this horrible virus off. The fluey symptoms are lessening, but the stomach symptoms are not and I’m floored 😞