My future

[Megalodonbud]

English is not my first language so I'm sorry if i make a mistake with my grammar. I've been dealing with anxiety and depression for almost 2 years. I'm feel a little better now but something just stop me from doing something. I'm jobless for over 6 months. I'm just too afraid find a job because I'm not confident with myself. I'm too scared. I'm scared of what will people think about me. I feel like my anxiety has gotten worse. I can't even talk and look at the strangers anymore. Not only strangers but some of my relatives because I'm too afraid to having a conversation with them. Idk what should I say and where should I look. I rarely going out now. I want to help my family financial but my condition won't let me do anything. I don't want to make my mom worried. I've done something really really bad before and made my mom cried. Something that I wish to erase from my memory. I promised her that I will try my best to get better but with my condition rn, I don't think I will be healthy again. I just don't know what to do know. I'm so stressed. I stopped taking caffeine because I want my anxiety to go away. My mom don't want me to take a medication because she don't want me to depend on drug/medicines. I stopped meeting with my doc because of her. I'm so worried about my future. All of my friends have a successful life except me. I just found out that I got migraine. I just wish I have someone to talk with or any life advice because i just want to be confidence with myself

[Abbiejade3]

Ive experienced generalised anxiety for 5 years which includes feeling unable to be in the same room as my family. In this time Ive tried talking therapies, hypnotherapy, regular exercise, eating healthy, herbal aids etc. I refused medication because I didnt want to be dependent on medication however, all that I tried offered short term relief only as I found it difficult to maintain, I was feeling a little better but not as much as I could. I have now been signed off work by my GP and I knew I had to try the medication, Im on day 4 and have hope for the future. Saying that, if you havent tried counselling and self help phone apps such as head space, worry tree or catch it, I would recommend you do. Id also recommend you go back to your doctor to see what else they can suggest. Im taking medication but still on the waiting list for CBT. Think about what you want for your life and future.

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[Dolphin14]

I'm not sure how old you are. Are you old enough to make medical decisions for yourself? If so your mom shouldn't be deciding what's best for you. A lot of people don't agree with the meds but some of us need them. That's a choice. But, why take you away from medical treatment?

Can't your mom see you struggling? I think you need to sit down and have a discussion with her.

I'm sure she wants what's best for you. Mayb she doesn't understand the depth of your pain?

[Jeff1943]

Megalodonbud, for some reason you have lost your confidence. There is no need for that, you are every bit as good as the next man or woman, never doubt that.

I think that getting a job will be like a tonic for you, it will kick-start your confidence. Do not be afraid of making mistakes in your work to begin with, everybody makes some mistakes and remember you will be trained how to do your job.

Your English is fine, I have the feeling you will be successful in any job you take on. You will gain pride and self respect from your work. If you feel your first job is not to your liking you can always move on to another.

What you did in the past that was really bad stays in the past. Do not constantly re-live it, that serves no purpose. Concentrate your eyes on the future and forget the past except to resolve not to make the same mistake again.

If you want to follow your doctor's advice to take medications then that is your decision and your decision alone. No one has the right to over rule you over this.

Once you have a job you will make new friends and you will have something interesting to talk to your old friends about.

You have nothing to fear, Mega, everything will go well in your future. So start looking for a job, go to interviews for several. Just be yourself at interviews, be polite, remember to smile and find out things about the company you are applying to join, people are impressed if you show an interest in the company you are hoping to join.

All will go well for you, I promise. If you aren't offered the first job don't let it knock your confidence. We've all been turned down for jobs, just move on to what's next.

I believe that finding a job will greatly improve your mental health and give you new confidence. I wish you lots of success in the future.

DO WHAT YOU FEAR AND THE DEATH OF FEAR IS ASSURED.

[Lorenat]

Try not to worry about what others think. Seek the lord. I can do all things thru christ who strengthens me. Love & accept yourself 💕