Has anyone on this app ever decided to go sober? Or maybe you are currently working towards that? If so, could someone share their experience? I'd like to hear about your journey. Here is a quick version of my story and why I am considering this and a few of my hesitations:
I'm 21 yrs old. Had my first drink around age 16, but was disgusted and uninterested. My freshman yr of college (age 19) I actually began enjoying the feeling of being drunk. However, I was still being safe and healthy; drinking socially and never overdoing it. Then around age 20- one year ago, I began drinking alone at night, very frequently. It was hard for me to go without it. I would not say I'm depressed, but I do know I have a touch of anxiety and will admit, like I'm sure some of you can understand, alcohol suppresses my racing mind and helps me sleep. Now in the past 6 months, I have been drinking even beyond wine by myself at night.. before hanging out with friends, before dates with guys, even before family events. On my 21st birthday weekend (august) I had what I felt was a near death experience involving heavy drinking and crossing the line, resulting in blacking out. In a weird way I'm glad I had this experience because I remember it every time I have a drink and keep myself safe. However, I still thoroughly enjoy the feeling of being under the influence.
I never thought I had a problem, but the more I think about it, maybe I do... because my hesitations on going sober include feeling like I will never enjoy life the same way like I did the past couple years. Everything seems more fun socially when drinking. I even think I would miss my wine before bed and am scared I will fail at going sober.
My recent inspiration and the only reason I'm considering this, is because my boyfriend, who I love and look up to so much, is deciding to take this on. He sat down and told me why and it actually makes sense. He doesn't want to risk the mental health and emotional complications that can sometimes come with drinking (he had a bad night recently while drunk and got sad), he wants to save money, create a healthier life style, and wants to prove to himself he doesn't need it to enjoy life. He isn't pressuring me in any way, didn't even mention the possibility of me doing the same, but it really got me thinking. And maybe I'm supposed to follow in his footsteps before I create a real problem for myself.
Lastly I will say, I am a very all or nothing person. Some may call it an obsessive personality. I'll either clean my room absolutely spotless or not at all. I am afraid that if I was to go sober and fail one night, I'd never attempt again. Should I ease into it? How did you do it?
Thank you for taking the time to read this lengthy post!
I wish this would go away 
The days, they do go by. 
Letting go of Control
Going to have to say goodbye
Fear of going back on antidepressants 
