My story

[panda_puff]

all right… Here it is.

2010, was the worst year of my life.

First off, my abusive father decided to pull a gun on me and my mom and my little sister. I was eight maybe years old. I didn’t think much of it but I was terrified I know that. I guess there’s not much else to say about that night except for the police came to the door at 3 AM. Anyways ever since then my parents of been divorced which has been nine years. Things have been “fun” since then.

Since then, my dad has attempted 3 kidnappings, successfully completed 2 kidnappings, kept my sister and me hostage from my mom for 4 hours. During that time, I was called a fat whore, by my step mom, I was called a mistake from my own father, and I was locked in the bathroom for 3 hours.

Also, whenever my step mom was home and my father was at work, she would sit on top of us and bruise our arms and thighs. She would lock us outside and not Feed us for 12 hours. Then when my dad got home, she would say that we were being terrorists...

Right.

I was being the bigger person and, I decided to tell him off. “Dad, I don’t feel safe at your house, and you are a terrible father to my and *little sister*. I am done coming to your house from now on.” Then a turned around and left. After that I didn’t see him for about 2 years.

Of course my dad being my dad, he showed up to a girls beach trip. As we were driving up to the house, his big ol truck pulled up next to ours. He made me feel bad and like I was the reason he had done everything he did. Whatever. I cried for fucking ever that night, because he refused to leave.

A couple years later, here we are, and my dad still says this is all my fault, and he forgets my birthdays, and blocks me though text, Facebook, etc. because this is “all my fault”.

So thanks dad. You are the reason I have depression, you are the reason I can’t go to the beach house anymore. You are the reason I have tried committing Suicide. So thank you. PTSD, Anxiety, and depression, DOES NOT do well with me. Thanks for all the scars, tears shed, and sleepless nights.

[EleanorRose]

This is awful and I am so sorry you have had to go through this. I’m sure you know this but I just want to reiterate that this IS NOT your fault. Absolutely none of this is because of you. You deserve so much more than this and I hope you can find a way through this to lead a happy and successful life without your dad.

You clearly have a lot of inner strength, to be able to tell your dad you don’t want to see him anymore, as you did, must have been tough but absolutely the right decision.

Have you sought any help for this? Therapy?

[Kevin160]

Im not sure if what im going to say will help or will mean anything now but

ITS NOT YOUR FAULT , YOU DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG

YOU ARE WORTH SOMETHING ...

My dad was very abusive , an alcoholic etc.. so to me this reminded me of the sleepless nights of fear, fear of fights, fear of problems , remembering going to relatives houses to get away from him, family protective services, etc..

Out relationship is ok now, very basic and superficial but its there , just know that you were young you didnt do anything wrong , your feelings are valid, your feelings make sense , you will get through this though , you will reach a point where everything is clear as the sun , and you will realize that there is so much to your life and you will be happy again ..it takes time and it wont be easy , thats why people like us struggle at first but eventually be thrive , i still struggle with acceptance , with socializing , im always the person who doesnt have a large number of friends, the person who doesnt like noise or parties , the person who has many fears (adult fears that people my age dont think off) , people dont always understand but you will find people here of other places who do ..

Dont worry it will happen