I'm just mad

[hitbyasegway]

Last night I finally decided to be completely honest with my boyfriend about how he makes me feel like he doesn't care about my mental health and I poured my heart out to him and sent him short articles he could read if he wanted to, to better understand what I am going through. He fell asleep after I did all of that so I sent him a final text saying that i knew it was going to be a lot to wake up to but i ended the text saying I loved him and I hoped our bad day yesterday wouldn't influence another bad day today. Well, he never answered. He's going to text me later, I'm sure, and say he was rushing around and he was busy (which he is. He is getting a tree with his family) but still, a text saying "hi babe I'm going to be busy, I'm so sorry, I will answer to all of that when I get the chance" is so quick to send out. I didn't even get a good morning text. So I texted him saying good morning and he hasn't even answered to that. Being ignored triggers my anxiety in a way I can't explain so my morning is beginning with panic attacks and crying and it just makes me mad that he doesn't care.

[collegestudent22]

Being ignored is something that really causes me anxiety too so I understand where you're coming from. Based off of his replies and behavior I think you're gonna be okay I know it's worrying that you might have drove them away but he seems open to what you've sent. I get that it can make you mad because he doesn't seem to be caring about how these types of things affect you. I'm having the same problem with a friend of mine right now. I hope he gets back to you and you can talk this out with him and things will improve. You're not alone!! Sending good vibes you're way!!

[Ardraven]

If there's a lot of stuff you just told him for the first time about these things make you feel and you just laid a bunch of information on him at once then it's only fair to give him a bit of time to read, process and digest it all before you judge whether he's making an effort to take it in to consideration. If you give him the time and then discover that he still isn't making an effort to understand what you're telling him obviously that's another matter.

If you need something particular like this in your relationship then you have every right to ask for it and expect your boyfriend to at least keep trying to get it right if he wants you to stay with him.

That said it's a mistake to ever put yourself in to a place where anyone's reactions to you are more important to your happiness than your own knowledge that you are an innately valuable human being. No one can replace your self worth or your effort to make each day a little more fulfilled than the last & it isn't fair to expect them to.

But what do I know. I'm just a crazy boy after all 😉