Sucks how thoughts escelate

[Kevin160]

I was sitting, a friends of mine was playing around and accidentely kicked me in the face , it was near my nose not even near my head, felt ok except for a little bruise , accidents happen right? It was all good apologies all around 😂, a normal person would not overthink it , not me , i tried my best to be calm like oh youre fine nothing is wrong, i was proud that i didnt panic , i was actually calm , but what i also wished for was to shut down those thoughts , the thought of what if something is wrong , what if you injured your brian , silly thoughts like that god i feel like a little kid ..i hate how anxiety exaggerates everything, i cant blame it all on it its my fault , i was happy to keep calm though and be rátional and tell myself if i feel any symptoms , any weird thing happening then i can panic ...nothing happned . So why do i do that to myself

When you are 10000000% sure you are fine but you doubt yourself because you dont want to dare to say everything is ok , to me i feel like i jinx it , if i say no im 10000% ok i feel even more scared like what if , when i doubt myself it feels like a safety net i can fall back on , i need help overcoming my superstitions , because my fears are not the problem right now

[Gtcncmp68]

This is exactly what I do.. Imagine the worst always.. I feel if i do this anything else is a bonus. Seems to me anytime I reckon anything will be ok it never is. I take cbd oil and it seems to help me with the overactive mind.

[Kevin160 in reply to Gtcncmp68]

Yeah i get how you feel, good that you found something that seems to help

I hope for you all the best

[EleanorRose]

I have always been a worrier when it comes to head bumping too. I never understand how some people just don’t care. It sounds like you did well to mostly keep calm and rational but you’re right- it’s awful how our minds jump to all sorts of conclusions.

Weirdly, a ‘head injury’ was what saw me get counselling (in a roundabout way!) when I didn’t even realise I needed it! Many years back, when I was at university, I was running a stall at a ‘Societies Fair’ . Someone from another stall threw a ball, which came down on the top of my head. It hurt, quite a lot. I tried to act like I was fine but inwardly I was freaking out. Days went by and I felt like I was ‘waiting’ to die from my injury until one day, I was on campus and I felt like I’d reached the ‘end.’ I was walking past the universities Student Support Centre and wandered in because I was freaking out and didn’t want to die alone. I ended up speaking to someone who got me into counselling, having not even realised I was experiencing a mental health problem - I thought I had a brain bleed! Strange how things work out 🙈😂

[Kevin160 in reply to EleanorRose]

I can relate so much, to me health anxiety is a big obstacle , its not just the head bumping , but in general i always overworry about things that seem normal for others, and it reached a point where it would be over simple things that deep down i know will be fine, but i would just not want to risk anything

It all stems in my opinion from my moms cancer journey, i really dug in the whole health topic and medical stuff, and googling became such a regular occuranc sometimes for any simple reason , and as a silly little kid i would believe i had any illness without even knowing anything about the symptoms or the illness itself , so over the years it became normal for me to be in a constant state of stress but like you i never thought it was a mental health problem ..but this year it became clear to me how obsessive some of my ideas and behaviors and im slowly learning to improve each and every day

The thing im most proud of is pacing myself, i finally learned the ability to not rush and overthink things as soon as i suspect something, sadly i experienced fears and scared like that so many times that i am now capable of calming myself even when something seems off , i watch for any symptoms without panicking which is so surprising to me but great

I wait a bit and i fill a close person in on the story casually sometimes so i dont sound very silly , because i still require some form of reassurance sometimes like “ oh no it cant be a concussion its barely a bump” , so im calm but not convinced so i need to work on that still ...

Ps, sorry for the long speech but i would love to chat with you regarding this topic since i struggle with it and would love to get to talk to someone who relates 💕

Thanks for all the help and feedback