Rant #2: In the dark times

[TopGunGiraffe]

In the dark times I need to remember that I want to help others and be a voice for our community. I can't accomplish this to my best ability until I start making progress in myself. I need to remember that any progress, is good progress. I need to forgive myself. I need to be better at letting go. I'm in a constant cloud. I'm constantly running the worst thoughts through my mind and I can't turn it off. No matter how many times I go to my "happy place." My usual remedies aren't working. I want to rest and feel at peace. I want to stop feeling so alone. I want to feel heard and understood. I want my brain to stop racing with negative thoughts and scenarios. It's like every mistake I have ever made is on re-play in my head.

[kenster1]

hi all of us go through some dark times and we come here for help initially but we seem to reach out to others more says a lot about us all on here.i hear you and hope the support you get on here will help you to better times.

[Likeabadstorm]

Your words you've written is what I constantly think...you are so not alone. We all hit these dark times and I am in it most days and I can't stop that hamster wheel. I am thankful for the moments I am able to, but lately it's not often, it's more tears than anything. Fighting the good fight to stay afloat. I have to, you have to, we all have to. It's hard but we can do it. Love and hugs to you...you shine very much here! I am grateful for you and you sharing the rawness of what it is you go through. It helps so much more than you realize!!!

[TopGunGiraffe in reply to Likeabadstorm]

Your words mean a lot to me. Thank you so much for saying that, it really helps a whole lot. We are stronger than we think and give ourselves credit for. xoxo

[Likeabadstorm in reply to TopGunGiraffe]

We are stronger than we realize even when we feel we are so very weak, yet somehow we wake to a new day to continue to fight the fight and those days turn into weeks and then months etc and hopefully one day we will wake to a fresh of calming breath air and we can look back and see the true strenthgh we did have and how we got thru it all to tell our story and continue to help others like some on here. Hugs.