Meeting my Needs

[Magicdreamer]

Hello All you beautiful people. 💐💚 So, I started at a restaurant as a waitron so, thank you to all who advised me to do so, as I took that advice. 💚 My first day was a double shift which was from 8 am to early hours of the next morning, and to top it off... you're not allowed to sit!!!

Whew!

BUT of course, I did siit as it's humanly impossible not to sit!! I also think it's a very ridiculous rule!!!

I've since changed my shifts from double to single shifts and said I'd prefer to work every second day, so I'm learning to meet my needs by not being scared to put forward how I feel and request change, which is a comfortable place for me to be.

I'm also seeing the aspects within me being reflected back as a mirror from people I work with... Inner child Freeze (triggered by threats - perfectionism) and Submit (triggered by criticism, duties and expectations - Shamed Self) 'not-enough' and 'low self-worth' however, the good news is that I am able to now recognise these parts within myself and others so, my awareness is growing and I'm no longer blinded. I'm now working on control elements of 'I'm not allowed,' and 'I can't .., because of the consequence of getting into trouble,' - all relating to childhood trauma and in general, the socialisation conditioning through generations of humans. This is pretty much a huge step in the right direction. 😂🙃🌻

Love to All. 💚💐

[Agora1]

Magicdreamer, congratulations, you've taken that first big step which is the

hardest to do. Confidence as well as knowing what you need as a person follows.

I'm glad you spoke up as to working every other day. The next step will be turning

I'm not allowed/I can't into "I can and I will". You've got this my friend xx

[Magicdreamer in reply to Agora1]

I hear you and thank you because that makes SOOOOO much sense to me in this moment. Thank you, Sunshine. ☀️❣️💐