Hello friends. I’ve hit the ultimate low. I’m on my Bathroom floor in fetal position crying hysterically, screaming, grunting and throwing things. My dad died last year and I put away the grief but slowly the depression has gotten worse and meds have stopped working. I saw my therapist today and he briefly brought up my dad and I quickly shut him down. But it left me thinking how I chose to put him away because the pain of his absence is too great. That therapy session threw for a loop of grief and memories that I did not want to conjure up.
I am on the floor drinking whiskey with half and ambien and a klonipin. I don’t want to die but I do want to mentally numb my pain. I want to be on pure oblivion till tomorrow.
I have no one to talk to right now.
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