Waking up and ease

[Starrlight]

After that difficulty last night I am touched by ease. I wonder where it’s come from.

I wonder how long it will last.

Blessings to each of you and thanks for being amazing!

[Florida1959]

Good news lots of love 💕

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

Thank you soooo. Love backatchya!

[Want2BHappy3]

Hi Star, just hope the ease your feeling never goes away. I took myself off my Medication because my doctor took me off what was helping. Instead gave me Medication that I had already tried but didn't help. She gave me the same Medication Again??? So I stopped taking anything, why??? Since it didn't help the first time??? I'm looking for a new doctor, I'm going to those dark holes again where I feel I'm losing Control???

[Starrlight in reply to Want2BHappy3]

(((((((((((Gentle Hug)))))))))) yeah that doesn’t make sense to try a med that you’ve already tried without good results. I mean I guess if it’s been a long time body chemistry could maybe change? But I feel like not likely.

You are strong. Keep strong. Keep your head up. Good things are coming our way. It will be okay.

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Starrlight]

You're right about body chemistry, I did try it again, still nothing. And recently my primary doctor prescribed medication for my anxiety and depression. Thing is when I picked up the medication it wasn't what she said she was prescribing??? So I'd didn't know if it was a pharmacy mistake or the doctor's??? My doctor is terrible at returning calls. And I've been suffering from Insomnia, I live in California it's going on 5am, I haven't slept yet. This is been going on like this for the longest time. It's driving me CRAZY. No one will give me anything to help me Sleep.

[Starrlight in reply to Want2BHappy3]

I’m sooo so sorry. Sounds like a lot going on with the sleep and not being prescribed what the doc said she/he would give you.

I do hope things get sorted for you. Don’t give up hope. Things can get better.

I do know that feeling when it’s all just so much and feel I’m loosing it... but we are resilient and healing constantly. Sending you good luck vibes ((((((((( 🍀

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks, I wish the Best for you also. Thanks for the kind words 🙂

[Starrlight in reply to Want2BHappy3]

You are a good person deserving to be happy... me too... praying for us.

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to Starrlight]

Yes we are, 🙂🙏

[Starrlight in reply to Want2BHappy3]

❤️

[JEG325]

Glad you're feeling better, S. I can tell you where 'it' comes from and that's inside of you!

It all comes from inside of you, good and bad. The trick is to hang onto the good and let go of the bad!

Have a blessed day, super friend!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

❤️ I will be trying my best... you know sometimes it helps but other times it comes to us without any fault of our own...we have power I believe and as you say we try to hold on and let go the best we can.

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

(((((Hugs, Love))))) for you, S!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

((((((Hug ))))))) ❤️

[Hidden]

Happy to see you feeling better x

You deserve it

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thank you soooo ❤️

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Always 😊

Keep us updated with how you’re doing if you want to

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Sure thanks Hope...actually I am already feeling upset maybe because I caught myself comparing self to others and putting myself down and on top of that I’m sick woohoo using some deep breathing exercises and trying to be nicer to myself it’s hard when it gets to be habit. Hope you are well Hope. ❤️

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Oh no 🤦🏻‍♀️ I hate it when I go through that .. comparing to others 😔 I’m sorry you’re feeling low again . Hopefully you’ll feel better soon .

Get well soon

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I’m in a hell; in so much pain. I feel shame. Maybe I deserve to suffer.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

Nobody deserves to suffer at all.

I see you’re feeling very up and down all the time and that must be so exhausting for you. Are you getting any medical help for this at all?

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

I see a psychiatrist and once in a while a therapist when I can get there but doesn’t help. I am thinking the meds do help somewhat. I can’t imagine suffering more. I feel like I can’t keep doing this but I have to you know what else can I do?

[Starrlight in reply to Starrlight]

I have been hurt a few times here lately so it’s even hard to come here even as it could be sometimes not helpful.

[Hidden]

Thank you..blessings to you...blessing to everyone..

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Yay blessings all around!

[Kainan]

Hang on to that feeling of ease. You deserve it. And whenever negative energy start to appear, bring it back to this moment.

[Starrlight in reply to Kainan]

I will do my best thank you Kaunan ... I don’t know why it comes and goes I’ll try to see if I can find patterns. Wishing you a beautiful day!

[Kainan in reply to Starrlight]

All the best to you!

[Starrlight in reply to Kainan]

❤️ you too!

[All_alone]

I'm so happy your feeling better. ❤❤

[Starrlight in reply to All_alone]

You are so sweeeeeet thanks! Hope you will be having beautiful moments all day.

[All_alone in reply to Starrlight]

I hope the same for you!!

[Hidden]

Hey Starry,

I just replied on your other post and I'm so glad you got some moments of peace! Mamita dont question it. Just go with the flow. I hope you get a smile on your face from some of these members' posts. They do so much to support each other and the banter has helped me get over some rough patches. WLA...AU

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

❤️

[Hidden]

I am so pleased today is a better day for you. Let is remember the good days so when we have a bad day it does not feel so overwhelming.

[Starrlight]

It’s funny on good days it’s like I can’t recall all of the difficulty and during bad days I really can’t seem to get into how good days are... but that doesn’t mean it’s impossible so I will be trying my best that’s all we can do. Thanks sweet Autumnday! How are you doing?

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

I am doing okay thank you.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

That’s good.

[Starrlight]

It’s sometimes hard to know when to push and when to rest. I’m super frustrated as my anxiety and depression seep back into me. Deep breaths, thinking of things I am grateful for, trying to recall the good thoughts and feelings trying here...wth?

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Glad you’re feeling better.

[Starrlight in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

I’m actually down in a pit again it’s so frustrating. I’m so done with trying for the day it’s gotten me nowhere. I took a walk and will take two more today that’s all I’ve got in me left to fight with. I did nothing wrong I don’t know why we suffer my faith and hope are squashed and I feel myself getting angry at myself, at God, plain frustrating.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Starrlight]

So sorry you’re struggling again. What an emotional roller coaster ride this is. Hope you get some more relief. Hugs to you.

[Starrlight in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

❤️

[Daisymom in reply to Starrlight]

I’m so sorry starr... it’s miserable to be in that cycle that it sounds like you’re doing of self-hate self-pity… Then you break out of it a little bit just to go back to the negative self talk. Keep with it! Keep focusing on your gratitude and push those negative thoughts ... if there are people out there who deserve to suffer… They would be the kind of people who never would because they don’t have kindness in their heart which you clearly do!

[Starrlight in reply to Daisymom]

I tend to not like myself when I need to like myself the most you know?

[Daisymom in reply to Starrlight]

I do! That’s when you should reach out here and we’ll be nice for you until you can like yourself again 🦋

[Starrlight in reply to Daisymom]

Thank you

[Ddorne]

We all have to deal with those ups and downs and why one day is dreadful and the next ok!? Love to you

LD

[Starrlight in reply to Ddorne]

❤️

[DreamerAdam]

that moment when there are no thoughts....thats the best feeling in the world

[Starrlight in reply to DreamerAdam]

Yes so true Dreamersdam ... wishing we had more control over it