I felt joy in my heart

[Starrlight]

On my second walk of the day I was almost to the school when I felt joy yes joy and excitement and just thinking about it now makes my so grateful because for so long I felt nothing very good at all and mostly was so terrifying instead.

I’ve been healing physically mentally emotionally and even spiritually.

I will still struggle with the beliefs I hold about myself and the world as I sort things out and I am willing to try to be as patient as I can be during this beautiful learning, cleansing time in life.

I want to thank you for the big time support I received when I was at my worst. You helped me stay and keep trying. I feel like I walked through a level of hell and now I get a break because after every difficulty comes ease. I still have such a ways to go. But that will have to be okay.

Remember that we can’t give up because we will get through this way and I believe there will be a day when you and I may wake up and are just so plain happy to live the day given to us, blessed.

[Hidden]

This is such wonderful news, I'm so happy you're out of that black pit you were stuck in!! What a relief to hear that everything is looking up for you in multiple regards. There's nothing greater than that feeling of finally being free from those dark days. Even when it takes forever, those better days make the crappy days feel less.

I'm so proud and elated to hear about your progress!! Thank you for sharing this and being so kind to so many people here. You're truly an inspiration.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

☺️ Oh thank you BlackCatGirl. Thanks for being happy for me. I think you are an amazing person.

I will still get the bad days like we all do but I think I have entered a new phase, a much better place overall compared to what I just went through. I’ve learned a lot and am focused on practicing compassion and patience for myself and others.

[Hidden in reply to Starrlight]

You might have a bad day here or there, but that's normal. It doesn't discount those good days! You take the good with the bad and while you're here in this spot now, relish in your progress. Live it up and pat yourself on the back for all you've accomplished. It's a big deal having a good day!

So mature of you as well to be able to reflect on such wonderful traits. That's what matters most. Keep doing your very best, I'm sure these brighter days will be more frequent 🤗

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Thank you ,you are right, take the good with the bad not discounting any good. I do hope they are more frequent. Thanks for being here.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Starrlight]

“...compassion and patience for myself and others.” You always have demonstrated those traits to others, and I’m especially happy you’ve put yourself in the equation. That’s what I am finding, being a couple of months out of the black hole; that I am gentler with myself than I have ever been. What a blessing. Thanks for sharing your progress. It gives us all hope. Lynne

[Starrlight in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you! I am so happy for you... a couple of months!!! That is huge. Gentler is it. It’s a great feeling to be able to treat ourselves the way we treat others.

[JEG325 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

No surprise you're here either, L! When two of my favorite people are talking that makes me ecstatically happy!

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

S, is right. You are an amazing person, BCG. I knew that the first time I met you!

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Thank you so much sweet friend. You too ❤️

[Lostmyself65]

Yes! So glad to hear this 🦋

[Starrlight in reply to Lostmyself65]

Aww thank you 🙏 😊

[kenster1]

hi star its great to hear that your in a better place long may it continue.we can only offer so much on here all the hard work effort and determination is done by you and for that you should be proud of yourself.

[Starrlight in reply to kenster1]

That means a lot to me, thank you Kenster!

[JEG325 in reply to kenster1]

Ah, the man who defines class on this site. You know, wherever you and Star are, you will find me too. I have a large legacy to go in my attempt to learn to be like you guys. You each give me a goal to aspire to and a reason to keep trying. I want to thank you both for that!

[elderspectrum]

Very happy to hear this. You did this yourself with lots of help from others. And you've helped so many others on this forum. You should be proud but vigilant.

[Starrlight in reply to elderspectrum]

True I need to stay focused, keeping it up. Thank you soooo!

[Ddorne]

Praise the Lord, May we all learn from you!

LD

[Starrlight in reply to Ddorne]

Thank you so much!

[JEG325]

S, I am so happy to hear that you are feeling better. I too had an extra happy day on Wed. My writing group went extra well and I talked to people on H/U all day! With Sue in my life, I enjoyed the day from beginning to end! I'm sending you lots of love and hugs as usual, my awesome friend. My sweetie also sends love and hugs. Keep on being happy it only makes that bright light of yours glow even more!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

Thank you so. It means a lot to me. Im so glad you had a great Wednesday! You deserve it. You are constantly lifting people up here. Love to Sue. ⭐️

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

We both love you, awesome lady! Today is awesome too! Thursday Night Football and jamming my music very loudly! Have a bright, bright, evening, my super special friend!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

Niiiiice absolutely awesome you! What team do you like? Tonight I’m helping my son and husband pack up for a skateboarding competition this weekend.

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

I am a Green Bay Packers fan (as is Lilyannepuppy) and they are playing tonight. My favorite team is the Kansas City Chiefs because I think their quarterback Patrick Mahomes is awesome! Hope you are enjoying your evening too!

[Starrlight in reply to JEG325]

Cool 😎

[JEG325 in reply to Starrlight]

(Yes, you are!)

[newbie56]

Oh, Starr, what an awesome blessing for you and yours. To come out of the dark to the wonderful light is a wide awake dream. Better than gold or sweet wine!

Enjoy every moment & "remember it" again even on dark days. It will be an anchor for you. Hope abounds & love never fails.

Agape

[Starrlight in reply to newbie56]

You are so right; it will be an anchor. I love the light. Thanks my friend.

[katherineo64]

Walking does wonders.👣

[Starrlight in reply to katherineo64]

Yes! It does

[peterfromlondon]

well done !

[Starrlight in reply to peterfromlondon]

Thanks so much!