Sleep mode

[Flor1]

I am in permanent want to sleep mode. I just want to sleep forever. For the first time in my life I have to force my self to eat, nothing taste good. I am in authentic, go to work every day come home and sleep, wake up and force my self to go back to sleep until morning. And repeat again and again. 😴😴😴

[NeuronerdDoaty]

Survival Mode. Do you have a therapist? I did this for 20 or so years. Survival. I hope you’re talking with someone.

Doaty💛

[Flor1 in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

I don't anymore, I quit my job that had medical benefits 3 months ago, I wasn't thinking! Now I am working without medical benefits and I can't afford a therapist. I am being ruin any good in my life. I work really hard to get a good job, a good relationship, friends and then I want to run away and my anxiety takes over and I destroy everything that I work so hard to get. I don't know anymore. I am being doing this my whole life. I am 49 with no stability, living in a little room, I couldn't bring my dog with me and kids are tired of me they don't even want to talk to me anymore. I understand that they are tired of me because I am tired of self! I feel lost

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Flor1]

Oh I’m a runner! I’m 55. I dragged my kids everywhere. I called my runs ‘adventures’.

No it’s not for kids to deal with. They’re trying to launch their lives. Most churches have a Celebrate Recovery. Most towns have a free mental health clinic that can lead you to a group. Sometimes the library has it listed.

I’ve started over 3or 4 times. It wasn’t bad. I learned a lot.

All those who wander are not lost.

Look around and do what looks like you can handle it for a year. One year. That’s all you have to do.

Best of luck to you

Doaty💛

[Mellowme73]

I know how you feel. I remember enjoying that 1st cup of coffee and what I wanted to do for the day. Like me, you have to get in that shower and maybe invite yourself out to a local breakfast place..more fun with someone...but better for getting out just to say you beat the depression demon and changed out of the rut for that moment. Please feel better and put one foot in front of the other.

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to Mellowme73]

I like this!