I'm new here and I don't really know how to begin.

[LPadde]

I guess I'll begin with saying that I have been dealing with some sort of depression every since I can remember.I didn't have the best childhood growing up and as I a teen I had to deal with many unfortunate things happen in my life. As of recently I feel like my depression has gotten worse. I found out that my husband of many years cheated on me. I felt betrayed and disappointed to say the least. I feel what made it worse is that I don't really have friends that I can talk to about this. I've kind of distanced myself from pretty much all the people I've considered to be close to me. But no one has really checked on me and I don't blame them, people can get busy with their own lives and if they did check on me I doubt I would say anything. I feel like I'm rambling. I'm just here to... honestly I haven't figured out what I am expecting here.

[Believeinyourself123]

Hi there! Welcome to the site.

I can relate to your situation. I came from an abusive childhood and also was cheated on. Infidelity is one of the worst pains someone can go through. It took me years to get over it. The funny thing is the mistress is a true crazy person and wont keave me be and recently my ex that is a cop is stalking me. Now i have left them 100% alone. Makes me wonder though. I know im way better off but i feel and know the pain you are going through. I got zero closure and the second time catching him with the same woman he kicked me out, filed a pfa and then played victim. Oh and didnt believe me when she was bothering, harassing and stalking me. So yeah it sucked becsuse honestly i loved him with my whole heart. Ever since then my life has been bad. Besides a few close true friends i had to do this alone.

As for this site it truly is amazing and you will find lots of love here. I know I did.

I tend to ramble but thats ok if thats tge worst thing i do. Feel free to PM me if you want to chat or vent. I'm happy to listen.

[Esther228]

Hi there, my friend,

I’m so sorry to hear about your feelings of depression and that you are dealing with so many emotions. It is difficult to see the light when you are depressed, huh. Have you thought about seeing a physician about the depression?

You are being brave just by trying to talk here about your problems. I’d be happy to chat with you if you’d like!

I’m sure thinking of you and want you to know that you are not alone.