Grief is visiting me again today

[Kat63]

I’m dealing with feelings of grief and loss today.

As everybody knows, I’m still upset about losing Eddie Money and Ric Ocasek. A lot of that is the grief over losing the first really good part of my life. I’ve talked about that before, so no need to belabor the point.

The only musician death that hurt me worse was David Bowie. He died the day after the absolute worst day of my relationship with my boyfriend - so I think I wasn’t able to fully take it in at the time. But I felt unable to listen to any David Bowie music for about a year afterwards. This time, it’s the opposite - it’s like the Cars/Ric Ocasek music won’t stop playing in my mind.

Then, last night, I saw the Downton Abbey movie. It was great! If you liked the TV show, you’ll like the movie.

And I think the Downton movie triggered some more grief about my mother, who died almost two years ago. We couldn’t always talk about everything. We were on opposite sides politically; and I never wanted to confide in her about personal pain because I didn’t want her to worry about me. But we liked a lot of the same entertainment - Downton Abbey was something we bonded over. It hurts that we couldn’t see it together, or at least talk about it. She would have loved that.

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🤗. I can’t offer any advice. Just wanted to let you know I am reading and suffer with you in your time of grief. I hope you feel better soon.