I have been having bouts of anxiety that come and go depending on my situation. I feel vulnerable to what is happening around me and allowing that to affect me rather than feeling in control. There are some brief moments of sheer elation when my senses aren't heightened and I feel "normal".
Have had issues with alcohol. Don't want to use that to try to kill the fear and pain. It doesn't really help anyhow and I know its not the answer. Im struggling and I feel alone after a separation and loss of nearly everything.