what happened to me?

[aubs_1001]

Have you ever felt that you’ve stranded so far from who you once were? You look back on photos or old journals and just weep? I’ve recently done so and I realized that I’ve completely given up on myself. I was struggling in these memories but I was fighting and shoving the depression monster back in its corner. I wasn’t giving up but somehow it got a hold

Of me again and I gave in. I feel like I am a whole other person, and honestly don’t know how to quite get myself back to the fight. I put in SO much work everyday.. how did I not know that I had just given up?

[Hidden]

It might seem to you that you are a different person but the fact is you are that same person. That person never left you. That person grew and changed. You have more life experience than you did.

[lillyofthevalley37]

Don't be hard on yourself and make judgements , you are doing your best to live your life and keep depression at bay

Personally I find God and Jesus to be my rock of stability my identity is found through God and Jesus only my connection to them can restore me to myself

[pink83737 in reply to lillyofthevalley37]

Amen 🙏🏼

[sadskies00]

I feel that way sometimes. But deep down the real you is still there. It just takes a little work to get back to it. it’s not finding yourself again. it’s just an unlearning. i know you’ll get back to a place that’s authentic and brings you happiness. don’t give up Aubs

[hypercat54]

Hi we all change in life coz of our experiences. I look back at pictures of myself when young. I was slim and had so much more energy. But I know too that my depression was much worse in those days and to a large extent I am much more settled in my later years.

Nostalgia is all very well but nothing is ever 100% better and you need to remember the realities too. x

[aubs_1001]

thank you all for the support, it means the world

[Sabio77]

@aubs_1001, I'm sorry that you are going thru this difficult time. I know first hand depression can have a very strong hold. I am a survivor of 3 deep depressions. I get it. sometimes life happens and things change and sometimes it creeps up on us. Have you tried to discuss any of this with a family member, friend or trained professional? I'm here if you want to talk. Hugs