Doing somewhat better

[michael07]

Just a horrific depression that keeps me with suicidal thoughts every day. However, seem to be finally able to get going and do some work today. That helps a tremendous amount.

[Agora1]

michael07, I endorse you in going forward and being able to do some work today.

That's a positive step that will help more than you know. Make it a great day my friend. xx

[michael07 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you so much, Agora. Your support means so much. How is your day going?

[Agora1 in reply to michael07]

Good Michael, just got in. Thanks for asking xx

[mira99]

It shows improvement if you feel like doing something even if it’s 10 mins you get rid of that worthless feeling well done x

[michael07 in reply to mira99]

Thanks, Mira. One step at a time. Trying to stay out of my head, which just channels despair.

How is your day going ?

[mira99 in reply to michael07]

Yeah good I did the same felt good enough to do something in the garden when I got home instead of sat thinking what I should do I got up and did it feels good

[michael07 in reply to mira99]

Glad to hear you’re getting outside. A good inspiration for me.

One thing that keeps the depression humming is my obsession with my house, which I had to sell as part of my separation. I keep telling myself it’s only a possession, but really hard to let go of.

[mira99 in reply to michael07]

I can imagine that must be awful but really at the end of the day it can not only be replaced but improved and being safe and happy is more important than where

[michael07 in reply to mira99]

Thank you for that. A friend reminds me that the only way out of that mindset is unconditional acceptance combined with gratitude for what I do have.

[SirGrits]

Hang in there bro. Praying you had a good day. As someone already said, 1 step at a time. Well done.

[michael07 in reply to SirGrits]

Thank you so much. Activity helps. When it ends, I usually feel terrible again, but if I can just keep going, one step at a time. My head says this is the end. But when I can just be in the moment, I feel better. The irony is that I teach mindfulness. Doctor heal thyself. Doesn't work well for me right now...