Hard week for me

[Calmonoutside]

Trying to keep it together, but this week has been hard. It’s the 9th anniversary of my sisters death. She passed on the 4 th of July with me by her side as she had a gruesome death due to lung cancer.

Usually., I’m kept busy by the holiday events, but this year I had nothing to do. My health anxiety has been over the top this week as I fear I will face the same fate. Then I feel guilty for being alive and wanting to live.

I can’t seem to tell anyone how I feel, even though I have plenty of people in my life that love me and care, but I have always been the strong one, and I guess I don’t want them to know.

I’ve had anxiety disorder for a long time and took Paxil with great results, until it stopped working about 2 years ago, Doc switched me to Prozac which didn’t work at all and then to Zoloft which worked pretty well, but now I find myself depressed and lethargic occasionally. Does anyone know if Zoloft causes depression and low energy levels?

I feel a little better just getting this out, I’m very thankful for this site.

[Kat63]

I’m so sorry you’re having a tough day. Anniversaries of a loss are always difficult, and if they’re on or near a holiday, that makes it worse.

[texasbonnet]

I think you just showed yourself that sharing with another safe persons can have good result. Staying strong, to me, is about getting through a rough time and going on, being there for someone else (and you were for sister) and taking the good with the bad without taking the bad out on someone else. I think it takes tremendous strength to share thoughts and emotions with someone else. I know our society has distance to go for men to as comfortable sharing emotions as it is to sit down to dinner. So, thank you for doing that.

I am sorry you list your sister. It must be awful to lose a sister. I am sure she knew how much you loved her and that you were with her when she died.