Feeling like a zombie

[Ceelos81]

Today I went to my sons baseball game. I use to enjoy and looked forward to all his games they were fun. Now I worry that I’m going to feel sick or pass out at his game. I was also just sitting there and not even focused on the game almost as if my body was there and my mind wasn’t. Fellow parents were talking to me and it was like I caught every other word that came out of their mouth.. I was sitting there and I couldn’t stay still. It is a horrible feeling I can’t take this anymore, I’m losing the battle.

[Hidden]

Hey Ceelos,

Are you on any medications that would explain how you feel? A lot of them can cause this issue or even just anxiety, panic, and depression. I'm sorry and sympathize with how you feel and not being able to enjoy your son's games as well as some adult chat. It does sound like you were in an anxious situation seeking a "flight" in the fight or flight area. The memory and mind focus less on the words and more on the situation...where to get to safety. Maybe next time you can go for a short walk around the field...still watch but get to an area where you can ease your mind for a moment and refocus. As for the game, try to remember how many of these games you've been to and have made it through. You'll have to beat the mind at its tricks suggesting you'll get ill or otherwise. You can do this. Do you see a therapist where you can maybe discuss this situation and work on it in the future? It is frustrating, but trust me, you're not losing. You sat through the game and chit chat. While you might feel guilty or bad that you couldn't be a more active participant, you haven't failed anyone. Try to note the positive things that did occur over the negative. We truly are our own worst critics. Our anxious minds will always make cruel suggestions, thoughts, and feelings, but we can rise above them with a little mindfulness. Wishing you the best and I hope you aren't being too hard on yourself. You're going through a lot and still doing the best you can. Take care for now.

[Ceelos81 in reply to Hidden]

I’m on metoprolol but just 12.5mg witch is a very small dose. So I’m not sure that’s it but who knows. I also suffer from pvcs witch drives my anxiety/depression through the roof

[JkBrauer]

How much rest and sleep are you getting on a daily basis? Are you eating healthy foods and drinking plenty of water?

[Ceelos81 in reply to JkBrauer]

So I typically go to bed around 10ish and I’m up by 6:00. There’s days I wake up in the night for no apparent reason. I drink pure water at least 3 bottles a day Andy I think I eat pretty healthy. Don’t eat really fast food and I mostly eat chicken