Some days I notice it more than others but today, it seemed like every person I encountered changed their attitude when interacting with me. Afraid that maybe my RBF happens easily I smile and try to counter act that so when I do talk to somebody they aren’t immediately thinking negative.
Example: checking out.. the cashier is super friendly to the person in front of me and behind me but cold to me? Even after I engage in friendly conversation please and thank your... whatever I can do to make it a kind meet n greet. Still I walk away wondering is there something wrong w me? Did I dress myself horribly today? Is there shit all over my face like what is it? Lol
I know my anxiety runs deep and I can be self conscious... idk if it’s me or not but it feels like people I don’t even know have such a low tolerance for me the second the see me.
Not sure if this makes sense to anyone just needed get it out there.