This is my first post.

[Bay123]

And my first time talking about this with anyone but my husband. Since I was a teenager I've experienced mood swings and anxiety but have always managed through it and thought it was normal. The last few years I've been falling in and out of what I've been calling "the blues". This last one was three months long and it terrified me. My thoughts turned self harming and my anxiety became panic. I ended up quitting my job because it was triggering me. On my last day I had a massive panic attack and had to leave early. I am taking some time off to take care of myself and I feel normal today but the thought of falling back into that state scares me. I never told my husband how bad my negative thoughts got. I have a doctors appointment Monday but I just really needed to release this to someone today. Thank you.

[mel2501]

Like you, I always thought it wasn’t a big deal. I just “dealt” with it. Also like you, the last few years my blues became unmanageable. I don’t have encouraging words, but I do know you’re not the only person going through this. Best of luck!

[Bay123 in reply to mel2501]

Thank you! Just hearing that someone else is experiencing this too helps. I've felt guilty about it for a long time. Best of luck to you too!