My situation with my family is better , im talking to them again and its going fine , i feek safe, not because i was afraid of them and i know they wont do anything to hurt me , but just nit being alone made me finally feel safe again and calm, my heart palpitations stopped being constant , and just got to normak where they happen sometimes ...such as when im anxious or worried sometimes ..
Has been 2 months since i got terrible panic attacks and none since then , i finakky feel normal these 2 momths , i dont panic anymore , even when im really woriied , so i guess its progress, i have alot of things i realized , i have alot of mental growth and it was extremely eye opening how much i didnt know about mental heakth , knowing alk that and in addition to some support here, advices on claire weekes acceptance method , meditation, deep breathing were life savers , derealization and heart palpitations and getting anxiety over things that dont relate to me or i can control such as hearing someone died, or hearing someone i dont know had got into a fight , or hearing about an illness or a disease makes me go off into a terrible fear but not akeays , the anticipation of exams or important things like graduations , birthdays , yesterday i had a friends b day and i panicked because imwas anticipating it and just felt heart palpitations and fear ..its so annoying and frustrating knowing im fine and one hundred percent safe and nothing to fear but im still anxious ...i get alot of fears irrational ones that i know are unreal and wont happen but the thoughts scare me , and i never know how to control it until times passes and nothing happens until im more sure it wont happen but i already knew so why am i this worried sometimes over things that are so irrational or untrue
I guess today wasn’t that bad
Weird, but worth telling, I guess. 
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