Have you ever held hands with suicide?
Have you ever lived a life just trying to survive your own head?
I fight it with anxiety.
I still live every single day so scared that it might happen again. My goodbyes feel different after a visiting family. I live in a constant state of fear.
I would happily take this over feeling nothing again, it's just scary.
Yes I get it,and I often feel like this. I just try to keep myself going partly for myself and partly for other people x
Hi there sausan I'm sorry to hear your having thoughts of harming your self have sought help for this please don't try and beat this your self have you not sought help with this don't be afraid to ask for help its more common than you think! If your in the UK try the samaritans! Please take care I wish you well 🙏
Same here Sausan...
I can't get out of my own head. My brain never stops...I have tried to kill myself three times, but all over 10 years ago. I have had it under control, but recently lost three men I loved and now I am out of control depressed. I pray for death every day, but never suicide. I wish for a quiet and peaceful death so I can end this miserable life. I am a childless, single woman in her 40s with no money, love, or friends because I have pushed everyone away.
It is a struggle every day...I am here with you...we can get through this!
Im sorry that you feel this way about yourself Meow. You are still young. You can rebuild your life. It's possible. If u need to seek therapy then do it. Theres no shame in it.
I do go to therapy! I found a local NAMI center and I’m going Wednesday. I want to find others like me and hope to heal. Thanks for your response!
that's awesome Meow. Good for you!! Happy for u. My heart goes out to you bc at one time I felt how u feel now. One day at a time you can make changes and get where u want to go. Im in therapy and Ive made a lot of great changes.
Good luck to you. You will be ok💛
Hi. Have you looked into treatment for how you are feeling? There is a cure for this. A happy good life is waiting for you, you just have to know that in your heart and have faith. Get the help that u need if you are unhappy. Please.
XxSunni
Sad, your post really resonated, I've been there, and yes it is scary to live in fear all the time..please know that despite all of us being strangers in many ways, there are many good people here , who like all of us are struggling. Do take care, keeping you and everyone in prayer.
I'll keep your words in my heart, thank you for being there with me.
I've been there and fought it everyday with everything I had in me. Slowly bad days turned into eh ok days until the good days outweighed the bads. Wish you the best. Please take care of yourself.
Im glad your good days are outweighing the bad ones, mine are too. It feels better when I remember that others, like yourself, understand the fight too.
I'm worlds away from where I was at the beginning of the year. Seriously I've put myself in a much better place. I have so many options ahead of me and theres so much I want to do. This past month has been nothing but self medication through adventure, travel and anxiety. A literal do or die mentality at times. It's been crazy and an unbelievably good and scary way.
Yet it's still there in my head.. trying to take me as if it were a dog on a leash.
Same. Sooo much same, I get it
Seriously.. thank you.
I have, I'm 64 and several months ago I was looking for a gun and thinking where would I do it at? I wouldn't mind Not waking up sometimes? Everyday I wake up with a knot in my stomach. My brother and cousin committed suicide almost 40 years ago. I always wondered what state of mind you must be in to want to do that? Now I know, it's a suffocating and dark feeling. Are you in counseling? Everyday feels like a Struggle. Get help and leave your family and friends out of it,. They will become frustrated with you cause they don't understand what you're going through? I'm going through that.
I'm sorry your friends and family dont understand, I know how that feels. I told my family what happened and they pretty much ignored it. Not because they don't like me, some people just dont know how to handle that sort of situation.
I've been living like this for some time now. I'm gambling on myself, that I can handle this and do what I need to push through. Even if this kills me.. I'll know that I tried it my own way and it is my life. I lived it and I did my best. I'm probably going to make a post about this.
It is a struggle for me too, I don't feel good, about a couple of hours sleep. Had to go to my grandsons baseball game. Thanks for asking. Hopefully it will get better for us?
I was, metiforman, it was helping me, but doctor took me off it because I was gaining weight. Put me on something that I had used before and did nothing for me and told her this, she still prescribed it. I stopped taking it, looking for a new doctor
Metformine is for diabetes type 2. Did you know that diabetics have hormonal linked depression. ? I cannot take the meds as they affect IBS but on my journey have lowered my blood sugar which has put me in normal limits for sugar. I had to remove grains from my diet as well as cut dairy and remove eggs. I am better but people with autoimmune disease suffer more as people don't recognize hormonal depression.
I do have diabetes 2, but did not know about the hormonal/depression connection? So are you diabetic and Not taking medication?
Yes no medicine as you still have to watch diet. They made me I'll as they kept steppig up the dose. Went on my own diet which cut down on hidden sugars in food and drink. Can tell you about my diet and tests which helped exclude the foods that were making me worse.
Someone on this website is taking. Citalopram and is so happy that she is worked she will be on it for life. Most people find the drugs are not helping . I guess if you are not taking meds it will be a struggle but if the drugs make you I'll it is catch 22. Expect you need help with post traumatic stress disorder with psychologist. Hope you find the right help.
Haven’t found help yet and it’s been 2 years. Ready to pack it in.
Where do you live is it UK?
United States
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