anxiety is threw the roof right now

[hlangdon]

Just spent part of the day at the county court house due to my stepfather who is selling the house I'm living in. Still no place to live at this point. May end up in a shelter some where in 2 weeks. ON top of it all I just sold my car that I cant drive since there is no car insurance on it nor is it registered in NJ. Having a little problem with breathing right now and when the court paperwork came via email i had thoughts of hurting myself.

[brokenlight]

I’m so sorry hlangdon.

Thank you for reaching out & for being here.

Please don’t hurt yourself.

Just breathe.

We’re here ✨

[hlangdon in reply to brokenlight]

thank you brokenlight. the anxiety right now is hurting me bad. almost went into tears yesterday at the courthouse in front of my lawyer. my anxiety last night was off the wall again and my heart was racing. I know the prozac is not working throughly

[Joanne1972]

Oh gosh I can understand what you are going thru, I'm also having to move as landlord selling flat I am in and I can't find anywhere to go that will accept me on benefits and will allow my 3 cats. I can't imagine how you must feel with the added knowing your pain being caused by a family member.

One thing I have found helpful and made me feel pro active when I was struggling was sorting thru my stuff, picking up your belongings a bit at a time and asking if you want to take that item with you, or ask do you love it, will you ever use it. That kind of thing. I found it quite therapeutic and cleansing of things that not of any use, I ended up taking 19 bags to the charity shop and everything left are things I love or feel positive about when I look at them. It's also less stuff for you to pack when you do leave.

When sorting thru stuff I'd leave paperwork n photos til last or you'll end up getting overwhelmed or upset.

one other thing I found helpful when I've spent the day looking for somewhere to live and failed and its 3 hours before I can take my next anti anxiety pill is to distract my thoughts by playing a free online game of scrabble or gin rummy or something that you have to think to win.....I've currently played 1032 games of scrabble n lost 28 ....although I am on the easy level as I like the high of winning 🤗 Don't get into any gambling...just the free games, it's better using your thoughts on something else for a while rather than hurting yourself.

I'm sorry you are going through this, I hope we find somewhere nice to live and we will be surrounded by belongings we love (and my cats) and we will be excellent at scrabble

Good luck to you 💕

Jo

[hlangdon in reply to Joanne1972]

thank you. been looking for over a month with the office of temporary assistance with no luck yet Hopefully you have better luck