Full of anxiety

[purl1]

Hi it's been a while since I've been on here and I need to vent. I am so full of anxiety and I'm having a hard time calming myself down. I can't stop worrying about everything. I have been actively looking for a job and I'm panicking about it. I don't know if I'm going to be able to work. I have such a hard time getting up in the morning. how am I going to get up, shower and get out of the house to get to work by 7 am. I can wake up early but actually getting out of bed and into shower is the hard part. I also don't know if working will change how I am right now. will I still be full of anxiety, worrying about every little thing all the time or will it take a lot of that away because I will be preoccupied by work. I am so scared just thinking about it. I just want to go back to being normal again. I can't take this anymore. I hate looking around and seeing everyone going about their life and not understanding what I'm going through.

[Xena13]

One step at a time..., make your healing plan and stick to it!!

[Kat63]

Hi, purl!

My suggestion is to break this down into smaller thoughts. You are still in the job hunting stage, so maybe you could wait until you find a job to worry about getting up in the morning?

[Heidi_ldi]

Hi there,

I totally understand what you are going through because I have been in pretty much the same place a few times now. What I had to do was be realistic about what I knew I could & couldn’t do in the morning before work. Forget the shower, if possible. I have gotten really good at this now, lol. I am totally not a morning person and would rather spend the extra time in bed! My boss is nicknamed “The Devil Wears Prada” & has earned that nickname. I always have to wear makeup & it has to look perfect and same goes for the clothes as well...so I just bring my makeup with me in the morning and put it on in my car when I’m stuck in traffic 😬 or in the parking lot before work. I’ve had to become creative at ways to cut corners & try to manage always being in physical pain, extremely tired, super anxious & depressed too. Luckily, I’ve made some awesome friends at work & am so thankful to have them in my life...so you can try to think about the positive things that can come with a new job (like meeting new people/making new friends) as well as being patient & compassionate with yourself and realistic about your limits. I also take a lot of supplements to help my immune system because when I’m stressed/anxious about work I ALWAYS get sick. I make sure that I get to bed at a decent time during the week because if I don’t get 7-8 hours of sleep I’m a basket case the next day. I’ve also had to take a “screw it” approach when I get overwhelmed by all of the “what if’s “ because if I let them run lose in my head they’ll consume me. Personally, work has been a distraction from a lot of other things in my life that were causing me anxiety, so that has been good for me. Good luck with this situation, know that you’re not alone. Try to cut yourself some slack and take things as they come. It’s always good to talk to someone about your feelings so keep reaching out, whether it’s here or with a counselor, etc. Take care 😊