Having trouble with my thoughts

[supreemkai]

I felt a lot better after I started taking lithium, I guess I don’t really have that feeling of dredge on me, but I’m still stuck doing the same things, following the same pattern. I haven’t talked to anyone I know in months, no ones reached out to me or asked how I’ve been. I feel pretty pointless being alive if I’m honest. I don’t really feel anything after I started taking lithium, no good or bad, just everything as it is. I just know that my life is pretty pointless. And I think most of my life it will be this way. I’m not really hopeful, but I guess it’s just how things are for me. I don’t know how to get out of following the same depressed patterns, it feels impossible. I have this feeling of fatigue and ache that makes it impossible to do anything. I feel frozen, and I don’t have any hope for my life.

[2017runner]

Hi, sorry to hear you are feeling this way although it is positive to hear that you are feeling better after taking lithium but you say you are stuck in the same behaviours so it sounds like you would like to maybe change some of your behaviours. I wonder if you might be able to start your day by getting up and doing a little gentle exercise as this will help your mood enormously. You could try yoga or running there are lots of free apps to try so you don't have to think and make decisions about what to do. I know the feeling of being frozen and hopelessness well, but you sound like underneath it there is a small feeling of hoping for things to be different, of finding a point to your life. What if the point was that if you could make one small tiny step today to change a behaviour that would be the first tiny tiny step on a long path towards you getting better and feeling well again? What is the tiniest step you think you could make right now? Sending you love and motivation x